*The future awaits us~*

Monday, August 31, 2009

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO ALL MY TEACHERS!

honestly, i feel bad that i did not do much to thank my teachers.
seriously i will make back next year. provided i get to come back to cchms or if i even remember.
when i was given the tasked to pass a present to mr chia, i actually said something like. "wow, finally i feel like part of 4DL"
i know, i was not helpful. didnt volunteer to do all these, leaving only those few of them.
at one point in time i felt part of the group. then of course after the change in table arrangement. forget it. its always them them them.
fine. just feeling sour ok.

man. i really should be studying. new things just refuses to get into my brain. force feeding wont really work. they just get vomitted out the next minute.

thanks to today. i'm starting my worrying streak again. i mean, its strange...
to the guy who i messaged today, ignore me. i'm just a worry freak.
i'm just afraid the situation will worsen next year...
i wish you will ask about it but nevermind.

<|6:16 PM|>

Sunday, August 30, 2009

LOL. i certainly was spot-on for a couple of times.

talk about yesterday when fisichella made through to Q2 at the fastest timing, i said that fisichella would definitely make it to Q3.
then when fisichella stayed in the pits for half the Q3 time, i was guessing that maybe force india intended to shock everyone and top the times again with 1 or 2 runs.
indeed, fisichella took the pole.
power indeed.

before the race started, i blabbered to the others who were watching that we are prepared to see an accident during lap one, bringing out the safety car perhaps.
but omg. who would have believed that it was a crazy accident that was started by kimi raikkonen. >_<
when kimi clipped trulli's front wing, trulli slowed and led to a bottle neck with the newbie romain grosjean spinning championship leader's rear...
then it happened. 1-2-3-4 knockout. jaime, grosjean, button and hamilton out with 3 other than button crashing into the same corner. haha what a joke, that was shocking.

the safety car probably ruined fisichella's chance of a win. because of the kers was full by the time the safety car went in. that meant kimi boosted his lead. oh my. but the rest of it was quite ok.
fisichella and kimi were on the same plan throughout. and the commentator kept joking about fisichella's crazy want to replace badoer and race for the ferrari team...

barrichello managed to end the race in 7th before his engine burst into flames while reaching parce ferme.

i guess, that is why the belgian grand prix is such a must watch.
everything can just get so unpredictable.
it can get topsy turvy at any time.

haha, i had my fun.
hoping to get more fun tomorrow.
but yes, i need to stop studying the subjects i like and abandoning the ones i dont. =x
completing chemistry already. ehist still untouched.
i feel satisfied and probably refreshed after a nice weekend.

i still dont understand why i can find so much joy just watching the races. is it all the action?

<|9:41 PM|>

Saturday, August 29, 2009

i decided not to talk about the amaths paper 1 anymore, just in case people start strangling me again. =x

some people just looked so scary after the paper.

but i am still hoping i will be able to meet my aim.

i guess it was rather a scammer paper.

tan(0.5A)? walao we do before lor!

practically that whole question has been done before.

but. i'm not quite sure if what i did was correct...

confusing la.

what else?

the graph scammed quite a number of people who drew the wrong graph...

for the last question we were not asked to equate y in terms of x. which i overlooked until i saw the equation. =x

not so bad ba.

1/8>c^2

i think that just confuses the signs. @_@

forwards backwards.

hope for the best la.

completed 12 chapters of chemistry! YES!

and 1 TYS paper 1 for emaths.

rush rush rush. i need to complete ehist too, which i have not started. dont know if i can complete all the chapters in time for thursday exam. still got the other half of the chemistry syllubus to complete by thursday too.

@_@

have i been slacking today? there's the belgium race tomorrow and it is the MUST WATCH of the session...
luckily still got monday(half day) and tuesday(school holiday) to study
oh great. i still dont know what time school starts on monday. i am assuming... 8.30am? since they never mentioned it, i can assume that. its ACES day too. dang dang dang.
i wonder what time school will end on monday too!

anyway, i should say congrats to weiding kor.
it has finally been official that he is in a relationship. should have seen all the buzz at his face book profile page.
indeed, weiding has stopped waiting. =x
haha, wish him all the best with da sao.
@$*@%& i still want to see him with da sao and there he ruined the blackmailing plan. =x

<|5:10 PM|>

Thursday, August 27, 2009

i cant believe i am slacking so much today.
come on, its amaths paper 1 tomorrow. i should be doing some more practice or starting on chemistry and ehist.

opps. by saying this i am definitely annoying people.

anyway, still very tired despite sleeping a lot.
i am still not able to get a really good night of sleep.
@$)@%&@)&$ woke up extra early this morning. sick and tired of forcing myself back to sleep actually.
2.30am, 5.15am, 6.05am...
i couldnt get back to sleep after that so i went to read my ss.

i hope tonight i can sleep well, need 100% concentration for the amaths paper.
grrr... i want to have no careless mistakes for tomorrow's paper. i must, i must be able to do it!

anyway the people sitting around me seem to be a little sick. i better not catch a flu or something.

best of luck to myself
thanks to you.

<|6:45 PM|>

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

OMG!
i think i must be SO blind!!!

coming to think of it, english today seems so screwed...

situational was rather unclear here and there, following the way 2008 o level was set. @_@
and i felt it was just too weird.
wrote about 1 and a half pages in the report format. fingers crossed here because i felt i wrote too little.

i didnt read any of the other essay questions for compo and instantly wrote the one word essay.
pride
amazingly i started crapping out an essay longer than my normal essays... wrote more than one sheet of paper.
ok, i consistantly referred back to the pride i had and it slowly disappeared through the essay until the point my friend died.
i had to be thinking of rain at that moment, so i wrote something similar to an accident that happened in malaysia... something like that. =x just hope i can still do well as i did not have much great phrases.

comprehension was strange.
the questions were short. passages were long. just a little hard to decide on what to write. but i felt it was still managable other than the fact that almost all my answers were copied from the passage. will i pass? i better.
summary... @$%)&^#&*$@&(%#^
I CANT BELIEVE I MISSED OUT 10 LINES OF THE PARTS TO SUMMARISE.
that is when i was going a little crazy staring at the amount to summarise.
but that was clearly the reason why i could not find the 17 points. only managed 14... the other 3 points were supposed to be in that second part.
shoot. that is no good. no good.
but the worst part was that i had TOO MANY words. so i had to carefully shorten my answers.
i wonder how some actually had too many words to spare. ~_~
something is seriously wrong.

ss tomorrow. tough luck.

<|2:42 PM|>

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

"(pokes table) you must get A*!"

"huh what A*?"

"90 and above la, primary school one lor"

(rolls eyes)
"i still think my amaths will score higher than my emaths. because of... (you)"

haha.
thats not much of a problem at all ^^
yea not at all.
i think it is quite funny actually, the fact that A* was 91 and above.
emaths is after teacher's day anyway. plenty of time. all i need to remember is to bring everything necessary for the exam. not stumble because i forgot something and make many careless mistakes after that.

yes!

feeling slightly ready for the prelims 2.
best of luck to myself la hor.
and to all!
ss and amaths p1 this week too. so quite nervous that i would not be able to finish studying ss.

off to revise some english!

<|8:14 PM|>

Sunday, August 23, 2009

i just need a good night of sleep...

nothing seems to be going well.
waking up many times in the night. quite fustrated actually.
and i am certainly not getting a peaceful environment for studying.

have a neighbour running out on the street with his dog at 10pm+
it is very noisy and it obviously happens twice. out of the house and back into the house.
i advice to wear proper shoes and not hard slippers. or else, DONT RUN!
tsk tsk.

completed 3 chapters of ss. quite pleased with myself.
watched valencia's grand prix today and obviously bad things happen too. the stream got cut off from lap 27 onwards.
great. what luck.

i'm not imagining that 1 week when my sister goes overseas.
sweep floor, mop floor, wash clothes, study, cook, wash dishes...
i say that is not what i should be getting.
i was doing all of that around the same time last year when my sister was taking her A level.
this year, still doing it. *sweat*

i cant quite get things straight.
prelims to start on wednesday. how how how.

that is the power of the mind. the ability to transform words with no specific meaning to suit your feelings.
if only...

<|10:09 PM|>

Friday, August 21, 2009

o_O

why does it always seem to rain...
i really wonder.

today was very weird. according to ruisi, we flopped around a lot.
haha. it was quite crazy.
really not in the mood to study these days. PRELIM IS NEXT WEEK! SO WHAT AM I DOING?

lol. actually, i very lazy to handle the guides cookies thing anymore. screw it screw it. so leave ruisi do it now. use my handphone call lor. so weird.

i still feel empty after today. but why???

<|7:55 PM|>

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

been talking to qian hui a lot recently.
haha, she is like the only one i can really talk to. i mean topics wise.
although i do not believe that the bells will really ring... heh

i promised myself that i will do it. so i will. no matter how i try it, i will be able to make it work out. fingers crossed till the end of o levels.
89 days?
something like that.

aiya, i might just forget it by the time o level comes.

i STILL have not passed my 2.4km run and it is the last try tomorrow. *breathe* i am quite afraid i will fail this year.
motivation. i must run on my own. but i need to quench my throat thoroughly tomorrow.
I WILL PASS BECAUSE...
and dang, my classmate wants the whole class to play touch rugby during pe.

its nice to have a person or more giving you morale support...

<|5:36 PM|>

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

huh what the...

today's oral was so-so. i thought i did better than prelim's one but @$(&#(*$&(@#$&@! i saw lower marks than what i expected. i dont know la. but jiamin had the same as me for the first 2 sections. which is so scary.

why did that happen???

and oh my. it was quite hard to use ms kwek's phrases into the picture. a bit messed up. but i felt i was able to answer sufficiently.
just not long la.
i took a shorter time compared to jiaxin.
>_<

breathe, i kept forgetting the question and occasionally i could not hear the teacher speak.
i was a little crazy talking to myself before i got called to the teacher's table.

being the last is not really good. you should have looked at the bored faces of the teacher. got some yawning, looking around.
AND THERE WAS AN ALLURING CROISSANT STARING AT ME.
T_T

finally feeling hungry after getting a little cold feet because of the nerve wrecking wait for about 2.5 hours. @_@

surprisingly i was not very nervous. the teacher did not ask much questions and they were hoping i would say more. but i kind of forgot what the last question was already. when i completed a point, i was like what is next?

the healthcare thing was confusing.
smoking was not much to elaborate. and i had problem saying my point, like smoking is an extremely ______. only after that i realised i must have said rubbish there. habit to pick up lor...
occasion you felt guilty?
what to do with those people who are bad examples...

what the heck la.
yesterday was not easy too.

WHAT IS GOING ON???

anyway, i got my spectacles on sunday. i had the usual problem of making decisions like i always do.
stare stare stare
nothing was my favourite shade of green. and the only one i managed to see was awful.
i liked a design and i chose the black one.
eh black is quite common now.

today i went home with qian hui. uh interesting enough, we could wear each other's specs because our degree is the same for both eyes! 100 and 75. just that she has one eye with 25 astigmatism.
lol. see la, partner jiu shi partner. same same de.
study time together tomorrow!

<|8:23 PM|>

Saturday, August 08, 2009

thanks to sitting at that window seat for more than half the year,
getting terrible reflections of light on the board,
straining my eyes for the poor image by the visualiser,
bad lighting,
reflections of the light on my textbook...

aiya, should just blame having to study for long hours...

if i dont on the light, my study table is badly lit.
if i on the light, i cast shadows all over my work.
previously the table lamp was too glaring and produced a lot of heat. not good.

i probably need to get spectacles...
i never needed them when i just spent most of my time on the computer. now, after extra long hours of studying i am getting a deteriorating eyesight.
and to add on, maybe astigmatism.

too bad for me.
i just wonder if the o level oral passages are put in those plastic folders we see every school oral.

problems eh?
it comes when you are just too tired.

i just heard today that having a problem being coherent could be a type of mental problem. o_O
and mental problems come in many many many versions. eh?
lol that is when you have a cousin working in the MOH..

<|10:26 PM|>

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

and the battle has began.

the war of trying to avoid being picked on.

a person's character directly affects one's oral grade. shy= cannot do well.
it made no sense because there were quite a number of talkative people who did not do well. what about those who did worse than me?

want to pick on me?

anyway, this was not a fair comparison because some questions were obviously easier than others. having different questions for everyone just screws up the balance.
everything was fine until he asked me if teenagers worried about getting a job, getting married, having children. what to you expect?

fine whatever.
ITS MY PROBLEM LA.

i pity jinkim. she is obviously picking on him.
sweeping statements here, sweeping statements there.

or maybe it is just ironic that i feel more at ease talking to people i have never seen before than someone that a bit familiar a bit stranger. hmm?

arh whatever.
if only our teacher could do something more constructive than whole day harping on the same thing.

i had enough.
but it has only started.
it will soon be true that 人比人也会气死人

<|4:36 PM|>

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

lessons to celebrate national day... right...

those lines were all too familiar.
i heard it more than 5 times already. chinese version, english version...
how pathetic.
i mean, if that is the case, then i dont need to live anymore.

I SERIOUSLY HATE TEACHERS WHO PUTS ME ON DEATH PENALTY FOR THINGS I DO.

i realised how i always did better when the oral examiner was from another school. much, much better.
fine so that is my problem.

i find it even more ridiculous when i hate the teacher so much and i decide to do things my way. YET when i do better with my own way, they claim credit.

have you been scolded stupid for being too soft?
scolded for talking during lesson when you were just telling the person sitting next to you to shut up?
became a laughing stock because i just used one word wrongly. telling every single student of hers about my mistake. HOW BRILLIANT.
teachers who put me down because of one failure...

why must i meet so many ridiculous events?

how many times do teachers tell us that we must not be so upset over failures and should learn to conquer it. and we have teachers HARPING on the same thing over and over again.

hahaha, i dont care anymore. i'm happier that i am upset over this, because i get my own form of strength for other things.

and this is the reason why i have became such a person. i say teachers have forced me to be such a cruel person.
people make mistakes but why do things have to become like that.

at the end of all these, i just become another very annoying person.

most importantly, no one really bothers listening to the whole story.
with all these underlying factors, i'm just probably waiting for the "volcano" in me to erupt. maybe all will then end.

<|4:37 PM|>

Monday, August 03, 2009

aiya. how depressing.
probably i am not that kind of person. talking just kills everything. i mean, i always have problems stringing my thoughts into proper sentences and making them coherent. AS YOU CAN SEE, it is quite evident over here.

strange right?

i think nobody believes that i had a history of failing orals. even if i passed, it is not fantastic. i just dont know. i try to speak as loud as i can, but i often had teachers who did not show any respect for the student in primary school.

the worst was when i was reading the passage, the teacher got up and raised the speed of the fan.
that was probably what many teachers remembered about me in primary school. the girl who often failed her oral.

screw that leh. i dont know what just gets into me when i have my oral. its just not me.
but why?

the best part is always my reading of passage. you should see the comment mr soon wrote for the reading of passage and by the time i reached the conversation... it was the reverse. confident to nervous.
worst is always the picture discussion.

in the end, people will just think i did not try hard enough.
now, i feel like going back to maths again. see la.

<|8:05 PM|>

Sunday, August 02, 2009

84 days to o level. oh my...

i dont know how if i can make it in time.
was thinking of 1 chapter 1 day. but it made no sense cause some chapters are too simple or are already imprinted in my brain.

but i surely can make it. i mean it 3 more weeks to prelims!!! @_@
a prelim that lasts for another 3 weeks. how interesting.

anyway, its quite torturous trying to study, do homework, revise for test all on the same day after school. test papers after test papers, no time for myself anymore.
eh. i just had to remember about hitler's youth groups when i said that...

stopped doing all the lot 2 comprehensions already. ms kwek does not even have the time to complete our previous assignments. how she even complete marking the lot 2.

amaths i completed all the review questions in the textbook. now on to shinglee's tys questions! the prelim 2008 paper we did was totally ~_~ freaky. things you barely see around leh. i wonder how the people did it last year.
emaths has loads to complete. completed all the worksheets/revision papers. i dont know why i cant seem to draw my angle bisectors properly. always 1 to 2 degrees error de. maybe method wrong or what. everytime i do always the same thing happens.

physics and biology has many chapters of notes missing because i just didnt have enough time to complete them. yea i know those are excuses. target is to complete all of them by this week! yea yea. somehow someway. messing my physics notes at the moment. XD

yay, this is wordy but i feel i'm going to go crazy soon.

<|3:04 PM|>