*The future awaits us~*

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

zzz, i could not post anything for the last 2 hour. finally...

oh i forgot to mention that yesterday there was the case of the man that ask girls for their hanky. o_O and and and he is willing to pay for it... eeek pervert! right?

sigh. today so sian.

somehow, i feel miserable about napha this year.
no part of me is cooperative enough for me to get at least a silver this year. at this rate, i am going to fail a few items.
a problem for 3+ years which i could not be bothered to fix. maybe i really am not fit to run. its horrible... i remember i ran around quite a bit and my pulse rate can be a bit freaky. when i am at rest, it can go to as low as 50+. is it bad? >_<
as always, the more i push myself, the worse the results get... does that mean that i should not exert myself too much?

TIMED COMPRE WAS OMFG! the whole passage 2 was a @_@ i was filled with ??? ??? terrible, terrible...

oh dear, i forgot the rest of the things i already wanted to blog.

<|8:08 PM|>

Friday, March 27, 2009

slacked so much today.
mass reading tomorrow.

but for now i am sleepy but recharged. oh wait that kind of contradicts.

anyway, i realised i'm getting the hang of comprehension already. provided i open my eyes wide enough, i can pass comprehension without any problems. i hope. for summary i am still unsure.

quite screwed why i always forget to sign my test papers before handing in my files. -_-"

drank one glass of white wine during dinner just now. erm, i still do not like the taste of the wine though. and at least i didnt get totally drunk with 1 glass. lets say half a glass is the largest gulp i had? haha it's 13% alcohol. ah shyt it reminds me of chemistry!!!

oh i remember, this morning when returning to class i met yunfan. he actually said things like "yesterday i saw you with your boyfriend."
and oh yea, i have a boyfriend. believe me...
/sacarsm.

<|10:00 PM|>

Thursday, March 26, 2009

super tired today.

and whatever that "detention" can.

hell, was rushing some work during lessons. i mean just those lessons that i didnt see the need to listen. like when i already completed the work the teacher is talking about?

i still got a lot of work to do anyway. thankfully i do not have vocab to do this week or i seriously dont need to sleep.
digging up my work from the mess of worksheets around my room took me almost an hour.

wait i'm kind of incoherent already.

was shocked i got 17.5/30 for my discursive essay that i crapped in the morning before handing in. erm. its a VR for nuts. thats almost the kind of score i got for narrative. i wonder if i should attempt more discursive essays now...

and and we got our '08 year book today because some people were desperate. LOL. i mean i had to tell them on monday that we would be getting our year books soon. apparently they decided to give the '08 sec 4s first, then give the us. yongkhai went to the general office to sort of demand for it. =x
and it started the CONFISCATION madness by ms teo.

history was the last lesson and i was freaking hungry by then. i got up and wth, my lower spine started to hurt again. it hurts to walk a lot...
i kind of saw a lot of people during lunch. and walao i still look like a sec 3?
then went home alone. it's hard to find someone to eat lunch with on thursdays. zzz.

umchio junior was mad. he avoided me during lunch and claimed he saw me smsing my boyfriend. like since when did i have one. although he avoided me, i met him on the way out of school.
wtf, we started shouting across the road cause he insist he was so suay to meet me. and didnt want to walk with or even better see me again. mad.

<|6:16 PM|>

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

the funeral outside is making a lot of noise. its probably the noisiest funeral i have ever witness. maybe when you are rich and the decease is old, this is the way the funeral goes. and yes, it goes on forever. they pitched a tent taking up the whole end of the road. i mean, their house was big to start with...
every night you can hear quite a lot coming from there. i just end up sleeping later and later than usual...
its a pity i have no aircon to block out the noise. not like the one next door *cough cough*.

met my junior at lunch and he UMCHIO again!!! aiyoo... next time dont call him darren le, call him umchio junior.

well, i saw xavier(kc) at lunch today. erm, before he could even reply finish i guessed it was him. i mean i replied the messaged and looked around seeing a guy take out his handphone to reply a message. then i recieved it. aiya, its just about 5m away? LOL.

aiya why everytime go joseline's gym always got security guard come to kachiao?

anyway, i am seriously getting very sian of doing work! the want to do work just comes randomly. and now i realised how much work i have piled up infront of me.

and i realised i do my work randomly, not by the order of importance... aiya i anyhow de la.
maybe i need someone to force me to do?

and oh yes, my brain is cranking up already. maybe too much midnight rushing thats killing it. i should cut i that bad habit. i've been doing weird things recently.

i cant wait for the weekend to restore my life back to normal...
i now dont like thursdays anymore.

<|8:01 PM|>

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

there is many things i ought to do.

like the research on the question of:

Singapore's diplomacy benefits more from being a member of ASEAN than being a member of United Nations. How far do you agree? Explain your answer.

i cant seem to find points for the UN side other than worldwide recognition from other members of UN. improvement in ties between other countries. then? ...

i started ranking the common test results in terms of percentage.
it was quite an alarming that the ones i used to be better at did not do so well this time. but i must admit that the effort i put in for the common test is only about 25% of what i can put in. i mean, i never did 100% before. not even 90%...
from lowest to highest.
HCL - ehistory - chemistry - ss - physics - emaths
i didnt take my amaths and biology so it cannot be counted.

i'm still glad that i improved my seq for ss from a 2/12 to a 8/12. i STILL STILL suck at explaining things. it is always incomplete. sigh.

11 marks careless mistakes for physics? its crap crap. when i read my answers i can REALLY laugh at it. well, around the same time i even misread the comprehension and answered the questions wrongly? i guess it was one 糊涂 week at that time?

OH MY. did i like get dissociated from society just over that 5 days holiday?
i dont know. somehow, i dont feel normal anymore. like something is odd around here.

today i realised how much i do not yearn to talk to him anymore. did i change or did he change. that brief conversation just told many things and yea. the communcation part is weak.

maybe i really dont care anymore. i guess i'm finally getting over it after 2 years and 2 months. WOW! ^^

我终于踏出自己的影子了。

how much have i hurt myself these weeks. the shoulder and back has started its killing pain again. then the slight pain on the knee? i realised i can barely do any of the pft items now!
sit ups never worked out, shuttle run needs a bit of bending, sit-and-reach duh needs bending, sbj dying off, inclined pullups suffered. i never could run long distances.

TADA

<|8:23 PM|>

Monday, March 23, 2009

oh wait i'm back!

zzz.
breathe more and i will suffocate.
i mean it ok. such toxic gases emmitting from every corner of the house. @_@
and wth, i'm so innocent. today so 冤枉 ah!!!

first thing in the morning.
i was doing what i was told to do and i got accused of daydreaming!!! ><
then when i was asked the reason for not going class outing, i told the truth and it made me somewhat sound like i was lying.

UGH.

anyway, morning i met darren again. he umchio(sp?) lor. again. LOL. i'm such a harmless senior, but he is such a playful junior.
zzz, i guess sec 1s are forgivable. as though they still have not grown out of the primary school stage. i still remember the boys hitting each other at the sensitive during training. snatching girls' handphones do to i dont know what. stretching their hand everywhere was the scariest part.

oh yea, i sort of became the man in the family?
carry heavy things, climbing up and down. ladder here ladder there. i'm supposed to do everything.
zzz and some time i wonder why i even bothered.

i could really explain why i want to grow up and grow out so much.
the most obvious part is, i am never considered first.

zzz, and i often hear from people that the younger/youngest child is always doted on the most.
so ya wrong wrong. bias bias.
lets say my dad bought bread last night for dinner. 10 buns. i requested to bring some to school for lunch today. and yea right, by the time we were done with dinner...

"save the extra bread for your sister to bring for her interview tomorrow"
i was totally wth.

oh come on, i sound like i dislike my sister a lot but the fact was that. everything revolves about her. sore throat may affect her chances at the interview. hoho.
yea, just because she did well for her A level. you should have seen how my dad called and called many people when he heard she had 7 distinctions(inclusive of pw, AO chinese), 1B for chemistry.

sigh. nothing seems fair around here.

>>>喜欢一个人，开心就好。

<|7:08 PM|>

Monday, March 16, 2009

eh. somehow, this painting thing is not exactly what it seemed like.
the clearing up of things to prepare for the painting session is more like packing the house for a move.

hmmmm...
well, i emptied out 2 boxes of toys. 1/6 of the books on the shelves.
threw away 4 bags of rubbish.

found a collector's edition barbie doll. some swan queen thing. my mom insist i keep it since it was a collector's edition. somehow, everything in the box is in place. just that the box was squashed...

and and and

this was a perfect reason to throw things.
took out a lot of things on the wall. posters, glow-in-the dark stuff.
but the painting brought a lot of mess. they dirtied my shelves, books, table, drawers, boxes, bags, HOMEWORK and bed. zzz
hohoho, my homework. or more of my worksheets that i left on the table with the books.
and that get the picture.
i dont see how i should be able to go for the class outing in the mess.

hehe, going to get the computer in my room after this. moving a lot of things with it eh.
got my leg cut in the process of shifting the furnitures back.
i got tons of work to do this whole week. but nooo... i want to relax a bit.

starting on my work soon i guess...

<|5:52 PM|>

Friday, March 13, 2009

oh before i forget.

ITS FRIDAY THE 13 AGAIN!

the next one is in november, when we are supposed to be having our last paper. that is chem p1.

my my. somehow friday the 13 is weird.
the day of the last spa. the day of the last paper. the day that term 1 ends(like real).
the day i banged my ankle against the curb and it has not recovered.

yea, term one is only going to end on the 17 march. i'm still considering about attending the class outing. especially since they are painting my room on tuesday. tsk tsk tsk. ITS GOING TO BE PASTEL GREEN!

and i got new curtains which are purple! i seriously cannot wait to give my room a make over...
but i have not started. time to take down all those glow-in-the-dark stars and posters. and i really need to start on my homework. and and and revision!

<|6:01 PM|>

Thursday, March 12, 2009

i barely attended lessons for the past 2 weeks. other than 1 day that i attended for 1 hour...

it was as though i took a long holiday off from school. other than the cough cough common test.
kind of screwed it ba. i mean, all those suppose to do well subjects did well. the ones i did not expect to do well was done well... then the one i totally crap trash anyhow whack. failed like nobody's business. well, the others have yet to be received.

but i got 2 of the papers to chiong at home over the weekend.
i'm such a busy person now.
i've got my whole room to clear up for the painting thing next week.
boooo... so many things to clear leh. it's considered spring cleaning already lor.

anyway, pe was interesting today. i mean i didnt run for nuts. we were playing with the machine that can measure fats and skeletal muscles.
was quite funny how most of us have more fats than muscles in the arms. i have muscles more than fats for all part. now that is comforting. =\

somehow, after the bowling competition, i feel like a different person.
i mean like somehow i feel mentally tougher. maybe not so much, just a little. at least i can coax myself to not cry when i feel stressed. although my methods of venting anger just results in more injuries...
but i am kind of starting to dislike guys somehow...

and the best is still, I AM FREE OF CCA TILL NEXT YEAR!~ *rejoice*

i remember the last training at the club, i met that darren (surname i forgot) on the bus home again. zzz, that junior is terrible sia. keep 顶嘴 with me. then at the time he was supposed to get off, i told him...

"oh and i will not be meeting you again =D"

take back my words. i met him on the bus to school YESTERDAY morning. felt so screwed. i thought who was the one carrying the bowling bag similar to samantha's one. end up is him. we totally said the same thing at the same time...

"WALAO NOT AGAIN!!!"

that was so hilarious.
at least for once i finally find my juniors fun. =x

i think i will be spending more time in school from now on. and i really mean i think.

<|7:33 PM|>

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

i dont want to go to school tomorrow.
really want to stay at home.

screw it screw it screw it screw it screw it screw it screw it screw it

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totally blew it. screw. somehow i did not feel in place in the team. i want high also cannot. be friendly also like weird. it was unnatural and bad.
i still prefer when there are 2 people on the lane.

it sucks when you will suddenly have a piercing pain on the shoulder when bowling. bad ok. BAD.

on a brighter side, cchms girls managed to maintain the rank of 6th.
boys got 11 *coughs*

but i'm telling you that it does not mean i am not going to bowl anymore until next year. hehe, maybe going back to train with my primary school coach. aw, he coaching acs(br) now sia. and what strike academy thing.
i'm still thinking about choosing dsa or not...

<|6:51 PM|>

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

today is not even friday the 13. WHY SO SUAY???

neh today was terrible. greatly affected by the others. affected negatively and not positively. ugh. what lor.
luckily its 3 games. did not affect the average so much. BUT BUT BUT!!!
i shall not let it happen again.
so what if we just bowled with sports school team 1.

dang, i was so in pain?
i dont know what i did to my shoulder! and it hindered my bowling.
my knee was aching also. its amazing how i can put quite a lot of the heat rub lotion and i can actually feeeeeeel nothing.
strange yes.

at the end of the 3 games, one of the sports school boy came up and said a few words. i could not hear it but he just stretched his hand out and i shook it. it felt natural.

then there were some crazy guy comparing us team 2 girls to primary school kids? now who is the childish one can. tsk.
i cant be bothered but i obviously gave the kind of "i dont see the need to talk to you" attitute.
seriously where was the team spirit?

oh dang, i really feel like going up to ryan yuan tomorrow and saying "oh look! we meet again!". haha, bowling with him again sia. interesting...

looks like chung cheng girls will be seeded again...

aiya poor kitty...

<|8:12 PM|>

Monday, March 09, 2009

oh well.
somehow i am totally not in the mood for o level spa. i mean, i occasionally do things i dont even know why i am doing it.
or at least, maybe i was blind or cockeye or something like that.
but nevermind. i'll do well for chem spa this time again? bio spa on the average ba.

I JUST HOPE THAT PHYSICS SPA IS NOT A NUTCASE AGAIN!

argh. mr chia said my chemistry common test was not very well done. and and and, he wants to return it to us tomorrow.
but i wont be in class tomorrow...
sigh, i dont want to stay at the bowling ally until so late. =\

its cold around here. brrrrr

<|4:54 PM|>

Friday, March 06, 2009

oh yea~

i am improving with leaps and bounds. eh is that how you use it?

morning started strangely.
running towards the dark room in the morning o_O
apparently i dont like it. its stinks, small, warm, dark (no lights) and is in a secluded area.
i could not differentiate red from black. so i had problems finding my bag. it has an unfamiliar shape, how dumb.

morning exercise!!! so funny la. then the sleeping on the bus part also funny.
samantha took the whole row of seats at the back to sleep. i lazed around on the seat finding a comfortable position. kind of hard though.

waited for sherri to reach before we could register. apparently we were the last school to register.
but finally we started and it was not too bad.
coach came and repeated to us what i told liming before the warm up shots. to be the best doubles of cchms.
but eventually we didnt get it there. but oh well, at least we all tried and improved =D

first game with renee. really distracted by them sia. what they did made me laugh and i accidentally threw a gutter ball =x
oh and for the FIRST time. i got a foul. sickening, on the last frame. but lucky i didnt spare it in the end, or else i would be cursing like hell.
bleah, improved my average.

160
127
189
169
156
121
total 922 to add to the previous 844

now my average improved and is at 147.2!
43rd place now. how weird that i could jump 18 spots. but yea, grats for samantha being at 32nd and climbing!
=D
i'm feeling hopeful.
and i really hope i will finally score a 2xx game in teams event. when the atmosphere is there, i should be able to do it.

kind of worried though. coach made me the anchor of the team. i was a bit @_@ when he asked me if i mind being the anchor and i gave him a huh-what? face. but yea, go last. i suppose i know. being last means i am responsible for pulling up the team score. closing every single frame maybe?
*fingers crossed*

i really hope to have a 155+ average. almost there. i need a >171 average for team. yikes.

but overall. i am glad that i can finally see my name there, really representing cchms for bowling. we will try to keep cchms seeded!
MUST! =D

<|5:47 PM|>

Thursday, March 05, 2009

emaths, ehist and physics.

uh, nevermind.
it was on the average. i dont know ba. good or bad, i will have to wait for the papers to come back.

doubles tomorrow!
i will be doubling with liming. i hope all will be good. the boys thought that the lanes were bad yesterday. =\ *prays*

but yea, wont be going to school for lessons tomorrow. but i will collect my work at the end of the day. hehe =D

<|6:20 PM|>

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

OH DANG!

i was quite satisfied with ss. was smiling away while writing my seq. for the first time i started with seq. although my memory was not so back actually...
sbq a bit haywire. i wrote the reliability question a bit like usefulness one. then errr... a bit not relevant? i hope i can pass though.

but sigh, didnt get to take amaths. tried to spend my time wisely but ended up wasting it.
they ended their paper and what? we were still in school...
hmmm. comments were that the amaths paper was terribly easy and people can get full marks.
sigh.

i thought today was a good start.
it was a ROARING start. soaking in the atmosphere, the cheering of all the other school. do you wonder why chung cheng was so quiet? barely any shouting and cheering.
but all the noises did not exactly affect me. i dont know why...

i was really satisfied with the lanes on my 3rd and 4th game. it was too good. haha, but it was mainly only on 1 lane. same target, same line, same pocket, different results. =\
but relatively it was good. chocolate is good too. haha.

131 was a relatively good start for me. well, the first pair of games was with dashini and it was @_@ 244 and 225. oh my goodness?
then i improved to 151, still played a safe line.

the line became perfect and i managed to squeeze out a 187.
then it went to 159. resulted in a 157 average after the 4 games. note, 157 leh!!! it was kind of the best for the chung cheng bowlers till then.

i hit rock bottom at the 5th game. so pissed off. and samantha said that pair of lanes were good... i guess different people react differently. that pair of lanes created quite a lot of problems in the end. tsk, missing pins, weird scores...
the last game i hit a 125 fortunately. the 2 coaches watched my epic production of 7-10 split with a good pocket ball. then they were laughing... i hate splits on the last frame. what a waste, it could have been a 130+ score.

scores are already out. my average is 140.7. ranked 61. imagine if i had that average of 157, i would be ranked like 2X? yea, if only...

fret not, i WILL make a comeback. dang, i love this feel.

emaths tomorrow, lazy to do much revisions. i only know that there are graphs. i only know i suck at vectors. sigh, what real practice can i give myself now?

<|7:52 PM|>

Monday, March 02, 2009

lets take a good start.
red oh red~

have not worn the tennis skirt in a LONG time. i cannot remember how it feels when i bowl. at least i am glad that it is not tight. eh sounds weird.

screw hcl and chemistry.
i more or less did them not at all seriously. i really dont have the common test feel. never even studied properly. and worse still, mixing up the facts. but somehow, i left blanks for the first time.

blanks on a chinese paper. first question BLANK already. zzz -_-"
and i actually misunderstood some parts of the passage.
therefore, i conclude that i did not take the common test seriously, partially because of the competition thing.

spent HOURS today on ss. be glad, i really wish i can pass. got my explanations for the deterrence part done. hopefully i wont screw up like the last 2 times (in case you didnt know, there is only 2 times).
bleah, taking a serious gamble. ready to sacrifice my time for extra lessons on ss.

i know i know. everyone will curse me for only taking 1 paper on this 3 paper day.

competition tomorrow. taking BUS to school. how nice. but ya, i cant wait. i wonder what it will be like.
i'll pray hard. i hope tomorrow wont be a killer =x

<|8:07 PM|>