*The future awaits us~*

Saturday, February 28, 2009

oh my. reached home at 7.40pm today.
seriously, i'm totally in the mood for competition. slightly in the mood for common test (o_O)

but ya.
met up with samantha to cab down to occ.
the taxi driver was omg. i dont know why, but we felt he was trying to cheat our money. traffic was slow towards CTE. taxi fair almost $19!! uh... xin tong ar.
i was trying to study chem in the taxi and guess what, i felt car sick. i thought it was only me, but samantha felt it too! tsk tsk.

omg i actually met my primary school coach james. quite surprising that he still remembers me =D
but hor, somehow he looks the same.

i have officially completed revision for chem. so i should be trying to rush in the other subjects. the most time consuming one is hcl. so many words to fit into my brain.
i still have not touched physics. not even sure what chapters are tested!!! i mean, only know the chapter numbers, dont know the real name.
hcl-ss-emaths-ehist-physics! jiayous myself. =D

i think will be going to see the doctor if my bruised ankle(from 2 weeks back) does not recover by the end of competition. rubbed it so many times and i see no difference. i dont feel anything but ugh. its WEIRD.

<|9:00 PM|>

Friday, February 27, 2009

oh my god.

it was seriously quite a while since i last felt like that.
i cant quite describe it.
i miss the times i willingly waited for my friends. uh but the result often turned out the same.

then i suddenly had an unlimited supply of energy?!
sounds weird but uh.

good mood = bowl well.
ball also goes faster, hooks better, more consistant. some part of me aching also can forget.
i conclude, that as long as i am in a good mood, all will be good.
then when i am in a bad mood, everything eventually turns back.

haha, it is my wish to be able to get into the good mood for good bowling. but, HOW TO DO THAT IF THE PAPER BEFORE COMPETITION IS SS!
UGH.
suay?
i dont know la.

competition schedule. hmmm, i dont know if i can handle seeing sports school all the days of competition. the crazy imagination of being thrashed by them. actually, if we could thrash them even once, that would be good.

yea~

3/3 (12.30pm) --> singles!!!
6/3 (8.30am) --> doubles!!!
10/3 (8.30am) --> team block 1 @_@ sports school overload
11/3 (12.30pm) --> team block 2 heng not with ssp anymore. =x but sji?
oh and the best part of it is, we will complete our games and should be attending prize presentation?

i really want to win something. please?

i ought to be slapped. i have not started studying quite a number of subjects. in fact i am still messing up my pile of unfiled worksheets to find my exam notes from last year. hope they are still useful.

this is pre-exam and competition stress. die die.

bio spa debrief tomorrow morning. training in the evening. arh tired.
revision in progress =x

i want to experience it over and over again. anyway, thanks partner, i appreciated it.

<|8:04 PM|>

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

lol.

wasted my effort persuading. but nevermind.

the other day we saw a arowana in cchms lake. but after that day we rarely saw it again. i wonder if it was really one.
we have been feeding the fishes everyday~~~ mad lor. kiathui brings 2 slices of bread to school to feed the fishes.
i fed my biscuit crumbs to the fishes too. =D

today i in a gooood moooooood~

<|9:07 PM|>

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

hmmm...

i love to be home early. leisurely complete my online routine and it is only 4.30pm.
normally, after i get home, it is already past 4.30pm. bleah. i have not been studying diligently again.

chem test tomorrow, kind of lazy.

today there was some sort of accident in the lab. a SHORT CIRCUIT.
its really bad ok. you could smell something burnt. but somehow my first instinct was to look at the boys' side. most likely it came from there. and seriously it did.
i heard wire melt, yijue burnt his finger.
culprit was junhong.
i'm indeed curious about what exactly happened. but i didnt ask them. boys. zzz

getting nervous about competition.
3 more trainings before the actual one. i think i need to go again between the competition. zzz >_<

<|4:28 PM|>

Monday, February 23, 2009

yawns.

i'm so slacking again.
die.

bleah, missing common test for papers i do not mind taking actually. and oh sigh, i dont think there are repapers.
i just hope all is not lost.

but yea, i lost my full marks streak. after i started consistantly feeling sleepy during lesson. careless? the cost of all the marks i lost.
yea right, that is only maths.

although i will be missing bio common test, i shall still study for it. but at least i got more time to revise ss.

anyway, recieved the o level verification slip today. it had the tentative o level timetable. end up, i think it is quite reasonable afterall. 26/10 to 13/11. guess what!
THE LAST DAY IS A BLACK FRIDAY! just like the last day of o level spa, not considering the written one.

somehow this feels dejavu. weeee~
seriously.

<|8:28 PM|>

Sunday, February 22, 2009

i wasted the whole saturday.

terrible.
terrible.

was FREAKING tired when i got home after training.
imagine eating lunch at 10am. then trying to get to orchid country club by 12pm.
oh ya, what about spending 30mins just to wait for a bus. in the end too late liao need take cab.
to think it was a saturday and yet bus frequencies are worse off than weekdays.

i reached home around 4pm. zzz really zzz.
conked out on the sofa till 6?
but still very sleepy.
after dinner i did some amaths before sleeping. hehe, slept very early indeed.

and today i was left with a HEAP of homework. bio, english, hcl. everything is 2 sets. i dont know how i managed to start on it. in fact up till now i have not completed a single piece of work. zzz, its all too difficult. T_T
nooo...

argh, i imagine next saturday. training from 4pm-6pm. come home sky all dark already. wasai

you are so insincere...

<|8:01 PM|>

Thursday, February 19, 2009

aiya photos of the presents i recieved. hmmm, quite a lot of photos though.
in order of the presents recieved.

mr han gave me a J o.o he claims the J will give Joy.

this odd one was from jun rui, wrapped in newspaper, in a coldstorage bag. hehe. i didnt even see junrui that day uh what?
vanessa kept wanting to have her hand in the photo!!!
didnt want to be mean but from the shape it was predictable what was inside!

huh what is this!

from jilyn:

szehuey wants me to be INSPIRED.

vanessa gave me a dog. that somehow looked like a bear. opps.

the collaborated gift from yongming, yunqing and junhong. the most obvious one that the chocolates have melted by the time i reached home. =\

the second one wrapped in newspaper from my dear partner. and the newspaper was dated 18/2. how interesting. boo but i have no photographs. now that is sad. it will be handy one day hehe. =D

...

...

...

a what? i'm sorry to criticise but somehow this feels like it is for little kids. does it happen to be a hairband as that is the only way i can seem to get it on my head...

OK i am not serious.

but it seems like she is trying to remind me that i am ***'s queen. hmmm...

thanks to the people who wished me happy birthday. in sequence from 5.52am yesterday. erm sorry too many to remember.

yule

ruishan

ruisi

christy

shalin

isaac

mr han

clara

junrui

and a lot others???

ya like because yongkhai had to write it on the board.

i'm so touched. (hints sarcasm)

nevermind.

i'm really dying on ss. arh well, my explaining skills have rotted and are dying. seriously i need a lot of help here? explaining is so darn crucial.

sigh.

kind of stressed already.

apparently i cant take the way school has been going. argh T_T

barely have the time to go home early and have quality time revising.

oh school.

i have already been sleeping at the average 11.30pm every night.

my eye sight is deteriorating because of the seat i am at. tsk, i think that the cones on my retina are being damaged by the bright light caused by reflection everyday. even the TABLE is harmful. tsk

<|7:39 PM|>

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

well.

happy birthday to myself.
i'm 16 and hence i can watch NC16 movies already.

sense any excitement?
NO.

walao, if you were to ask me how was my day. i would tell you ok la.
in fact it could be classified as near disaster.

walao. want to SUAN me right?
some people are very good at gloatting over people's misfortune.
tsk tsk tsk.

walking under the sun for 20mins. i dont know how many chocolate melted.
training was seriously crowded again. its rather annoying you know.

however, i was rather fortunate that some people who i have not been talking to gave me a present.
the most ridiculous part was he gave me the same type of present as the one i gave him last year as his present. o.o
2 newspaper-wrapped presents. haha.

expecting 1 more present tomorrow.
a couple of sms and more face to face wishes.

perhaps i am greedy. i expected more.
i just didnt get what i wanted.
i am totally disappointed and not in the mood to do anything. oh well.

sigh, if only you were here. simple gestures could make my day. loves.

<|8:35 PM|>

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

lame way of celebrating my birthday with people i had not met in quite a while.
zzz, obviously it was not what i intended.
but who cares, at least i managed to do it. i failed for 15 years of my life. oh wait, i could not do it for all 15 years because...
you know too young.
tsk tsk.

was at mac for lunch. xue could not get into the situation. she also FAILED terribly in trying to make me choke. slow slow slow. we took almost 1 hour to eat?!?! XUE!!!!!
failed to trick mr han anyway.

no change no change. i wonder if he even realise i took this photograph.

its amazing how i have been able to take photographs with the person/animal looking at the camera.

bleah.

tomorrow after i make a wish or something, i shall open the fortune cookie that my sister passed to me just now.

i wonder if it will be related to the fortune cookie last year. or...

i just hope it is not crap. =x

<|8:07 PM|>

Monday, February 16, 2009

presents! which i finished over the weekend... opps?

nothing better to do so i opened the cookies the minute i got home on friday.

subsequently finished it on sunday morning as breakfast.

yaya, i am kind of a glutton but that most likely happens when i am not in a good mood.

oh speak about bad mood.

i came into class this morning to see the books which those boys behind took from the old lockers, on my table. whatever was the case i didnt see why i had to bend down to put it on the floor as it was the weekend before. so naturally i just dump them on the floor.

certainly created quite a bit of ruckus. it was loud but i dont care.

swollen ankle for i dont know what reason.
anyway, it was like that last night, and now its kind of less swollen but then comes the pain.

heh, i dont know how pain comes after swelling. weird?

totally.

i dont know why i have to do this. it was a wish that would not come true this time.

i just hope you would not forget my birthday...

please.

<|6:56 PM|>

Sunday, February 15, 2009

!!!

one of my cousin will be getting married after christmas this year. that would be the first cousin getting married. although i have cousins of a similar age, they are still single. a few are attached anyway.
then the other one attached one like has no plans for marriage.

haha, teachers are sad people. wedding also need to hold during the holiday.
then wedding photoshoot also need to carry out during the holiday.
all also need holiday. =x

funny? its only feb and they have almost everything settled already.
i never knew a wedding preparation could take up to a year.
hmmm...

this coming june holiday they will be going bali to take wedding photos. dont know if they treating it as their honeymoon because i doubt they have the time for it after the wedding.
they were even joking that 6 months down later the bride and groom grow fat.

i'm quite fascinated because i would be able to attend a wedding of my generation. witness everything i suppose?
wedding still seems to be an alien event to me. my other cousin was still joking that not very long later i would have my own.

i will only be 16 in a few days. haha, getting married is still like 10 years down the road. but yes, 10 years can pass very fast. time flies, especially when you are in school. or at least that is all i know.
what awaits me in my future?

<|6:04 PM|>

Saturday, February 14, 2009

there is no feel of valentines day this year.

or maybe it is because i was at home the whole day.

i have plans to go out and celebrate my birthday with people i havent met in quite a while...
but oh well, stuck with my conversation work because RD lesson is on monday!
ahhhh! =x

i hope it would be memorable, the good way not the bad.

<|10:17 PM|>

Friday, February 13, 2009

i guess it is my fate. or more that i was not fated to get it.

side track first. anyway not so much in a good mood although it is valentines day tomorrow. i dont have a valentine anyway. today is black friday. and and there would be another one next week. hey that is not good leh.

suay?
totally la. and yes i will explain. without the pictures as evidence and i think i will post them tomorrow? i cant get hold of the other computer at the moment.

morning i took the bus with ruisi and my sis. heh, with my bowling bag of course. omg? my sis asked if i wanted to sit down. and some indian uncle(not trying to be racist here) pointed at my bag and said something like...
"your luggage ar? packed to go back china ar?"

super insulted. this is already not the first time. and i really dont feel like a china person.

then when walking to school on the road, so many cars from both sides. was on the road and not on the pavement because of the bowling bag. then what the heck! my left ankle scraped the kerb. skin scraped and bled a little.

competition schedule is out. officially missing bio common test. amaths common test and o level chemistry spa may be affected. b boys not with b girls this time. which is super disturbing.
extra training on 21/2 and 28/2. 12pm to 2pm and 4pm to 6pm respectively. freak leh, odd timing. how to eat anything proper.

and the worst of all is...
for the 7th time running, i am not in the first team. if i was not wrong.
it is as though i have no talent. i'm not fit for bowling. i do not see why i deserve such treatment.

i have improved so much recently. thought so much and tried so hard. but STILL. because i have not shown any extremely good performances during competition, i am still not the one coach would think off.
i still went for training even though i was injured or something. i kept quiet even though some part of me was in pain. i'm not those that go up to coach complaining this pain that pain. i knew very well that the more i keep quiet the more i was considered invisible. i am serious for bowling, yet those not even serious can get into the first team.

team 2 has me as the first bowler(something i should be glad of), rachel, learning and tzeyeng.

dang i know i sound like a SORE LOSER.

but i am only like that because of what i heard. i was not the only one who heard it anyway.
that "i am going to pon bowling for the whole year" thing cannot be erased.
why does she deserve that slot? am i really that inferior to her? is she the important talent that requires "red carpet" to be in the team and even go for training?

how come when people do not go for training with valid reasons get chased after by the teacher so often? and those who did not even want to go for training, maybe even using grades as an excuse is not chased by the teacher?
i guess it is practically only all my assumptions.

i just do not see any justice.

there are those that thought well of me and believed i should be in the first team. but too bad, i am deemed as second to best. i seem to be stuck to the number 2 for almost every single thing, other than some exceptions.

zzz, i could rant on and on non stop.

and dang, now i dont feel like spending my birthday at the bowling alley. spoils the mood.
at this rate competition is going to be a screw up. i'm starting to lose the interest in bowling once again...

<|8:02 PM|>

Thursday, February 12, 2009

i dont know what on earth happened to my finger after i slightly injured it yesterday.
today it was giving me this numb + suan pain on my hand. the feeling moved from the ring finger to the palm and eventually the whole hand. hmmm... when i look at my nail i can see a white line down to the skin.
anyway it was rather irritating.
and as i type i have that irritating feeling in my hand.

history test was relatively ok. i didnt really needed the extra 5 minutes but i still used it to slowly write the inter related part. maybe because of that my finger started to hurt.

IPP + emergency evacuation!
somehow i could not remember which person was the one who told us to build the make-shift toilet. so funny. its just 2 chairs and a trash bag. no tables or something. but actually we were not suppose to open the kit and use it. =x
EE assembly area at the parade square. sec 4 took 3+ minutes which was very good =D but it was partially because of the distance to the assembly. wonder if it would be the last time we would have it in cchms.

training at occ again tomorrow. i hope it DOES NOT RAIN!!!

vday on saturday but bleah, staying at home... hehe. i wonder what presents my friends will be giving but sorry i did not prepare anything. jam drops not available this year.

<|4:55 PM|>

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

zzz what?

what on earth is this...
omg things are just getting MADDER.
test + test + homework + more homework...

emaths test was a bummer. i was going omg omg omg why like that. but the messy table and weird scales made it hard to draw the graph. sigh tricked tricked.

bowling was a disaster anyway.
kind of screwed a lot. was not in the mood. and boo the rain spoilt the whole going home thing again.
i dont like taking cab... especially during peak hour. but i have to do so everytime it rains.
$7.80 from ssc to my house.
the previous one was $8.35.
not worth not worth.

i dont know how we started talking about poly and courses. then the $$$ came in related to my future career. and scholarship? heh.

i dont really feel like totally mugging and memorising all the facts for ehist. i never liked memorising word for word. chinese is just a few phrases =x
half way through the homework though.

common test is nearing...

<|7:53 PM|>

Monday, February 09, 2009

not blogging today. =p

bus time!

<|8:03 PM|>

Sunday, February 08, 2009

sian. tomorrow monday already.
anyway completed all my homework yesterday. at least i think it was all. cant remember if there was anymore.

so today i was like sian dont know what to do already.
mug emaths already.
and ehist is fine too.

went my grandma's house to lao yu sheng (again wa?)
4th time this year surprisingly.

first one was during reunion dinner paternal side. it was super sweet with half the bottle of yusheng sauce was poured into it. we had extra ingredients sharks fin soup too along with potluck as usual.

second was the one i spent >hour peeling the radish and carrots. shredding them to fine pieces. and in the process shred my skin with it. oh well almost. to top it was the real salmon sashimi which i went out to buy also.

third was at some granduncle's house at little india. it was a vegetarian yusheng that costed $28++. expensive i would say. the times we kept using the word fake fake fake. fake salmon. haha.

now this forth one i love the most. a large platter with a tall mountain of ingredients. tongs are used in the process. the usual abalone porridge and the plethora of pokchoy. haha! 1kg bought for the festival =D its the nicest because there is pomelo added to it.

nicest part of this trip today is the birthday celebration part. although no cake/candles... a lot of angpows eh? but i have not thought of what i want to do with the money. i dont have a dying want to buy anything. so i most likely will be saving that money.

but for now i am so bored...

<|6:30 PM|>

Saturday, February 07, 2009

oh gosh.
i guess i really have such a bad memory. and in fact, because of this bad memory i decided to put important things in my wallet. like that namelist of orders.
end up i forgot it was in my wallet until today when i decided to clear the papers in my wallet.
ugh nevermind.

sigh life would be good one day..
i've dreamt of the kind of future i want. the people around me and all.
all is nothing but a dream if i fail to work towards it.
i contradicted myself again. zzz

next week will be boring.

<|8:57 PM|>

Friday, February 06, 2009

yay! i am so going to start the mugging career soon---

i just realised i unintentionally brought home all my textbooks... except bio and erm the chinese textbook i was supposed to bring back to study ting xie.
then again, yy say tingxie on tuesday. but tuesday no lesson! wednesday supposed to be cha yi ke...
yay???

it might just last for the weekend. screw weekdays, i can barely even have some time for myself without books. and trainings that ends at 6.30pm after the travelling back to school part... omg?

tv propaganda!
cool eh how some things seem.
then again some messages i can infer from the tv programmes are actually something bad. opps.
the lastest tv programme is like about engineering?
i'm quite interested. argh.. =p

<|9:07 PM|>

Thursday, February 05, 2009

OMGOMGOMG!

see la so careless. i dont like t and v liao la.
no full marks ok. no way man. i tend to make careless mistakes at these parts.
sad la.

aiya, i somehow cant remember where i put my things. classlists for money collections.

zzz, i dont have the slightest clue if i am able to collect the $6 from everyone by tomorrow. i have only completed returning the 50cents to all those who bought the amaths book. see so mafan leh.

the amount of money i collect each time grows and grows. $1 to $4 to $6. suay?
17/35 people so far >_<

anyway, i starting to reconsider the options i have for the future. kinda confused again cause there seem to be some misconception? i dont know but apparently the one i want seems to deal with a lot of responsibilities???
all i wanted was something maths mixed with chemistry that involves doing things.
i wish someone could guide me through.

my parents never seem to give constructive comments.
just uni uni uni uni $$$$
i think it the generation gap. i'm going 16 soon and they are like 54 and 59 respectively. how the hell?
i guess all is hard.

<|8:10 PM|>

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

OH DANG.

2 tests tomorrow and i have not started studying.
hcl and amaths.
so sad...

aiya, body aching all over thanks to the gym at yesterday's pe.
end up cannot really bowl properly today, back stiff and suan, walk very weird -_-"

OCC TRAINING! yay, i have been wanting to try it for quite a long time.
competition in <4 weeks. coach havent finalised teams yet.
stress la. but i am confident i will be in the first team.
would it be sherri-sam-yuping-me?
actually not so sure la...

oh yea, spending my birthday at the bowling ally.
but there is that wish... =D

<|8:37 PM|>

Monday, February 02, 2009

yay. we finally got back out individual profile thing for the myers-briggs type indicator (MBTI)

i am not at all fascinated by the fact that yongkhai and i seem to be the only 2 in the class that has the ISTP thing that is also called the mechanics.
haha, was looking at the possible career path thing. then i realised most are like for guys. like military officer or enlistee, engineer, law enforcement and mechanic.
=D

not so good news is the even later school hours to fit in a lunch break.
i dont see the need for us upper sec because our lunch is like at 11, not so bad. stress leh, the later the lesson end the more we lose our focus. T_T

<|6:58 PM|>