*The future awaits us~*

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

When you make the decision, you have to be prepared for the possible consequences.

arh sigh. extension week seems to just be terrible timekillers.

still not sure if we are considered sec 4 already. yesterday we just received a worksheet and the class number on it was "4"
kind of shock at first. but hey, think i need to start getting used to the class 4DL. ok this just feels weird...

homework is piling. worksheets and more revision papers...

O level chinese in like 6 more days?
starting to freak out because i scared i might screw up.
i'm actually quite curious about where the exam venue would be. should be almost 600+ students taking paper at the same time. HCL and CL.

wahahaha...
i want to go out after the paper but dunno go where and with who leh. =D

finally tried to actually do something during open house. never attended a single open house before.
and yea~
should be going to do something fun!
cheers!

<|7:48 PM|>

Saturday, October 25, 2008

zzz, this is irritating...

sometimes i'm forced to be on the receiving end. and i mean, i want to give at times, but i'm not given the chance to.
wait, i'm starting to confuse myself. -_-"

YES~
finally got the sense of belonging(thanks)! opened it to read, but havent gotten past the first story (omg i'm such a noob)

ugh, some time this afternoon the internet just crashed... didnt bother to figure out what happened since i was going out.
spoilt my mood for a while though.

boo hoo. think i'm going to be sick real soon.
- nonstop runny nose
- scratchy and sore throat

signs of flu? DANG!!! i dont want to be sick!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh ya,

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY ED!

when will i be meeting you again???

<|9:56 PM|>

Thursday, October 23, 2008

a short 3 hours session. actually less than 3 hours since some part was used to do other things like the good-teacher checklist.

heh

i am a ISTP!!!

Dominant Introverted Thinking (Ti) - The ISTP lives a world of logic, basing decisions on logic. They process information from their auxiliary function to create strategies for action at a moment's notice. They love to examine complicated systems.

Auxiliary Extraverted Sensing (Se) - This function gives ISTPs an element of spontaneity, driving them to embrace opportunities to plunge headfirst into experiences. It also gives them a keen insight into situations similar to that of the ISTJ. Their occasionally tunnel-visioned curiosity for the world around them gives them a "leap before you look" tendency. They are notorious for taking apart devices to "see what makes them tick", before considering whether they can put them back together.

Tertiary Introverted iNtuition (Ni) - Never as open in their theorizing as the INTP, the ISTP prefers to keep themselves grounded in the situation at hand, using their intuition to visualize components and concepts that they cannot see and touch firsthand, such as the wiring in a circuit board.

Inferior Extraverted Feeling (Fe) - This is the weak point of ISTPs and it may lead them to interpret criticisms of their ideas as criticisms of their competence. Although ISTPs strive to follow the edicts of logic, their inferior function can lead them to illogically and stubbornly cling to their own ideas even when proven wrong.

then still got another thing saying:
ISTPs excel at analyzing situations to reach the heart of a problem so that they can swiftly implement a functional repair, making them ideally suited to the field of engineering. Naturally quiet people, they are interested in understanding how systems operate, focusing on efficient operation and structure. They are open to new information and approaches. But contrary to their seemingly detached natures, ISTPs are often capable of humorously insightful observations about the world around them, and can be closet daredevils who gravitate toward fast-moving or risky hobbies, recreational sports, and careers.

zzz, i dont believe yongkhai is one too. -_-"

i must admit it is pretty much accurate!!!

after the whole thing we had some surveys and we were given a letter informing us about the briefing on 5th nov. such a spoiler, must go de -_-"

was supposed to recieve the sense of belonging today. but due to unforeseen circumstances... i didnt get it. dont even know when will be getting it anyway. uh well, no book for the weekend?
traded calculators and i was totally shocked. @_@ hate to say it but it is the worst looking calculator i have ever seen.
then there was those kaypoh kias watching something that was not even interesting to look at.

--- being a ISTP, i could not help myself but solve the problems with the calculator.

and yes, i did solve the loose battery problem. =x

<|3:24 PM|>

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

we officially started lessons!
we started on the nervous system today!
then mdm hasni was talking about dropping subjects. and it made me feel like dropping bio. haha, i dont know what good bio will do to me but it will just give me more options in the future? so ya, not dropping. i chose this and WILL stick with it.
NEVER TO GIVE UP!

wah before cca, i was in concourse with some others all waiting for cca. and i thought i was seeing things when i saw some sec 4s running through the concourse when the o lvl paper was about to start. but ya la, i was not seeing things. it was real. o_O

today is suay la!
at first a bit tyco... i actually opened the locker at the club with the code for like the first time? fiddling and twisting... its true, you only need the first 2 codes as you anyhow turn the last one in the correct direction will open le. MUST GET USED TO SUCH LOCKS!!! omg die die die. severe memory failure loss. oh hell...

clara could not finish her high game score as it was times up at her last frame!!! SHE HAD 7 strikes till frame 9 lor!
leaving after cca that time it rained so i shared a cab with samantha. getting off the cab that time, her bag was still in the boot. then wth? THE DRIVER DROVE OFF!!! LIKE OMGOMGOMGOMG!
and she dropped her phone so it became a bit cranky.

haha, cabbing + cake = me no more $$$
owe money pay money xD

good news for now, there wont be lessons tomorrow~~~
self-awareness workshop -_-"
wonder what we doing leh.

~LETTER!~

<|7:36 PM|>

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

slack slack slack.
that is all i can say about our back to lesson thing...

watch movie...
teacher doesnt even come...
no lesson...
early dismissal...

anything but lesson!
yes, the teachers are humane.
students dont want, teachers also dont want. =D

hehe, i dont know why but the extension week timetable is so odd.
11.15, 12.15, 1.15...
and we have 4 hours in total of chem spa for the 2 weeks(8 days). that is scary!
BUT IT WILL BE FUN! right right right???
4 hours of emaths to complete 1 chapter??? that is super odd...
then i have not heard from the other subjects.

new english teacher -_-"
i'm curious about what we will be learning for the extension week.

i cant believe i have been saying no no no about going chalets. maybe i find chalets boring already. or maybe it is the bbq part.

haha,
tempted to write a qing shu in chinese!!! =D

<|7:32 PM|>

Friday, October 17, 2008

year end results are out.

lessons where suppose to start today but none of the teachers were in the mood to do so. not like the students were.

haha, we received our cca record. i was rather puzzled to see only 18 points now. i forgot the fact that there are maximum marks to some parts. -_-"
but suppose by next year, just nice get A. should be la. participation + another competition.

we also received our second semester results. so i decided to tally my results for the whole year.
guess i now see the importance of consistant or improving results. when the results drop, it gets rather...
sad.
computed my results with the help of microsoft excel. and achieved an overall average of 72.3

then i went to tell my mom and it was weird.

me: my overall year end average is 72.3

mom: har what?! so low?

me: improved from mid year already la

mom: oh, so when you free to go buy your new bowling bag and ball?

me: o.o dunno

mom: when training start?

me: got holiday schedule liao (wanted to say started le since i went training today -_-")

she change topic change so fast. yes and thats it. 72.3 is considered low to her, but it is considered rather high to many others.
ya but i'm suppose to pay back the cost of my bowling training fees with my results. you know the top 10% thing? what are the possibilities? china scholars are just screwing up the balance...

erin heard from a cleaner or something, that next week we moving to new block le.
it feels weird. 3DL to 4DL...
but i really wonder where our classroom will be!!!

<|6:49 PM|>

Thursday, October 16, 2008

this is a great end to the eoy debriefs.
not only did we have aircon and chairs, it was also nice results(some).
the downside was my eardrums ended up ringing and it hurts -_-"

in conclusion, 3 C6s, 1 C5 and 4 A1s.
oi where are the Bs?

omg la.
emaths with @_@ calculation errors again.
2 x 2 = 2 ?!?!
6/3 = 3 ?!?!

*bangs head*
i now insist i need to train my mental calculation.

i must have scared myself. looking at my results off the name list yesterday, i totally scared myself. instead of seeing my results, i ended up seeing jyening's results!
totally freaked out after looking at the model answer key. then i knew something was wrong.
it turned out better than expected!

so i was wrong about the part that i scored higher in chemistry than that in emaths.
the most coincidental part was that emaths gave me 2 marks lesser than supposed and amaths gave me 2 marks MORE.

bio was more or less expected. rather, i could still blame myself for cancelling the KEYWORDS and being blind at some parts. fooled.

physics was totally unexpected. very glad with my section c results. that is because i actually chose the either question that i was rather unsure about. 20/20 gives moral boost!

every mistake found is a new learning point!
but ya.
settled my best 4 subjects, so now is english + humans.
bio is the last option =x

lessons are starting tomorrow.
luckily the lessons are not very stressful.
cheers! =D

<|5:45 PM|>

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

second day of debrief. and i can say i'm putting pressure on the people around me. sorry ba.

first thing in the morning was amaths. oh ya.

sadly i have to say this again:
WHY ON EARTH IS MY MATHS PAPERS KEEP GETTING WEIRD CALCULATION ERRORS EACH TIME WITHOUT FAIL???

dont believe me see oct 2007 and may 2008 archives. 3 times running got calculation error de.
before that i cannot remember if got errors de.

imagine, the teacher can go around telling people i got 94/100 for amaths and when i received my paper. i tio shock. 96/100... i dont believe so i recount. and CHEY is 94/100.
the teacher mark until very jidong eh. i need draw line because i do wrongly and no space to redo. she write comment say must leave ample space...
oh and i want to bang my head for that 6 marks of careless mistakes. opps. but ya, all careless mistakes.

2 x 4 = 10 ?!?!!?!!!!! (3marks fly to this careless mistake...)
got negative i blind never see... (2 marks fly for this)
log(base3)x=-1 (i blur blur go reject so 1 mark gone)

but ya, no matter how many times i check, i will overlook these simple things. sometimes i need to see the fine prints...

debrief schedule rearranged. so we got ehist back before chemistry.

good enough to pass combined humans but not good enough to get C5 and above.
finally, i can prove to myself that my SBQ is actually better than my SEQ. i had always thought otherwise. oh well, it is still a good thing. must jiayous for both sections.
and we know, we will all make it. =D

chemistry was lovely~~~
glad to know my mcq is improving. not making any mistakes out of the "common errors" range. the open ended a bit crap. give away question i also cannot score.
shock to know that my emaths got lower than my chemistry.

sometimes the way my brain function can become very weird.

civics district tour was very tiring. walked and walked and walked. quite interesting actually.

tomorrow's debriefs start with the next hell. but it will all end with a subject i'm relatively satisfied.
haha, that happens when you have high expectations.

♥36♥

<|8:58 PM|>

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

i guess, things will be less bleak once in a while.

after some chats yesterday, i have decided that i will try to cut away any pessimistic thoughts.
unwittingly, i'm getting affected by the various forms of influence around me these days. and sooner or later someone would be influenced by my frequent usage of the smiley =D
for now, just smile more. we will get through things faster this way.
=D
this,
not D=

after today, my utmost priority is still in improving my languages and humanities.

debriefs for today were the 3 subjects i was most uncertain about. results were better than expected! of course, what could happen when you expected all 3 to fail?

*clear throat*

I PASSED MY ENGLISH!!!
I DID I DID!!!
I REALLY DID!!! =D

please believe me...
but hell. last night i was still making a fuss about how i would get scolded if i failed english. now, i passed, BUT I STILL GOT SCOLDED.
hence, there aint a difference.
there is something for me to be glad about, or perhaps not...
first time i passed summary! thus, i say there is still room for improvements. (work on that again in the holidays if i remember)
compre nearly passed. was so excited. oh and imagine if i studied that 1100 words book, i should have been able to pass.
SA2 grade for english: 53.65%

i thought chinese was a real fiasco. but i didnt fail either =D
the second borderline grades in my subjects.
first time minus to many marks for the gong han.
and i achieved my lowest record for the essay part--- 39/70
passed paper 2 on the dot.
hcl overall grade: 52.25%

and for the first time in my entire secondary school life, my english attained a grade higher than my hcl. or should i say, first time both subjects had grades so close to each other?

ss was predictable. fail. DUH.
time to wake up and start answering the questions properly. 0 marks for the whole question just because of the missing 'agree' word.

yay! tomorrow is my 3 most confident subjects.
oh gosh, need to practice shutting my mouth for an hour. =x

<|3:54 PM|>

Monday, October 13, 2008

why do i sound/feel like some mastermind behind every mission that relates to tian qing???

the part about ganging up with rs to cheer him up?!
and his graduation gift today?!

erm but dont ask. i dont know why it all turned out like that.

breakfast!!!
with kiathui, jiaxin and yunqing
i have not had such a filling breakfast in i dunno how long...
and omg, i dont know what made me decide to drink milo instead.
uhhh...

MR LEONG WAS THERE!! THERE HAVING BREAKFAST!!!
holy.
along were many other cchms people.

cabbed to school as yunqing felt we were going to be late. ridiculous fare despite how short the distance was. it was peak hour no doubt.

arh wells, was getting rather sleepy during the ceremony. and while watching the class videos, we heard the same song 3 times. the 2 of them sitting next to me were not giving me any peace either.

haha, tomorrow is dooms day.
hoping for some miracle to happen when we get back the 3 most horribly done papers.
although wednesday would not be too bad, field trip might just be ruined by the atmosphere then...

<|2:07 PM|>

Saturday, October 11, 2008

omg i spent the whole day on the computer already.

haha
i say the entertainment i had today is so warped.

i ended up laughing until kena stitches sia.

=D
havent laughed like that in ages. even eating with rs and the rest also not that serious.

HAHAHA~

anyway, got to go out for dinner le.
celebrating my sister's birthday (tmr)
=D
SHE IS GOING TO BE 18!!!

<|5:33 PM|>

Friday, October 10, 2008

ITS HOT LIKE HELL OUT THERE.
AND IN HERE.

the enjoy after EOY feel is not there.
for some reason, a lot of online games like dont want me to play.

then the offline ones get very boring after awhile.

what to do?

i went out yesterday with my mom to buy groceries.
we happened to see an abandoned dog along the road outside our house. i dont know which jerk did that. all i know is this dog does not belong to the neighbourhood as i have never seen it before. throwing the dog by the road side in the hot sun. for the 3 hours we were out, the dog just sat there sadly hoping his owner would come back.

poor dog.

my mom was being weird by asking me to volunteer to tutor my friends emaths or amaths for a minimal rate per hour. -_-"
but then again, who would hire me?
i cant teach well for goodness sake.

arh wells, to top up things on this boring long weekend
i have no one to chat crap with!!!

sigh

<|3:19 PM|>

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

EOY IS FINALLY OVER!

5 days of slacking before the horror hits us like a meteorite crashing earth...

arh well, finally got through the 2.5 weeks of examinations. and like 4 weeks of mugging hard for eoy?

mr han came in this morning. then he became the centre of attraction and so many people started crowding around him. ya and by then i could not continue studying emaths...

emaths was =D
but no more full marks liao la.
2 marks fly~~~
stupid compound interest thing...

lunch out with mr han and the others. spent so much time at kfc. barely could finish my meal after laughing so much. haha, and because of us, mr han didnt go for some lesson thing he was suppose to go.

during this whole examination,
i screwed everything
but
chem spa
bio spa
amaths
chem
ehist
emaths

the rest may be screwed, but i still hope i dont fail any of the subjects. but it is highly possible!!!
argh.

i shall put all these pessimistic thoughts behind for these 5 days.

what shall i do now?
play?

not long till 3DL becomes 4DL...

<|5:25 PM|>

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

mdm hasni is going to have a hard time marking my bio paper.

or maybe it will be easier as there are centain parts that will all be wrong wrong and wrong.

section c was omg.
1 whole question on hormones. and pathetic. i barely remembered much about it. then about the pancreas, my idea is like there, but phrase everything a bit weird. i could barely understand it myself.
then again, i was never good at doing such explanation questions...

oh no... A for bio has seemed to be out of the question again. it almost always went out of the A range.
ah who cares bio anymore.

EMATHS! LAST ONE!
ya and i fell asleep on the table doing maths!
zzz, getting lazy already...

then i dunno what i want to do after the exams.
play?
go out?
or try to clean my room asap???

i know, i shall sleep for the whole day on thursday. been so tired recently...
sigh

<|6:57 PM|>

Monday, October 06, 2008

somehow, physics looked worse than it seemed.
or at least i feel that way.

i'm not confident of getting A1.
i'm afraid i might not even be able to get A2.
what if i dont even get B3???

omg this is scary. at least i know i will pass.

the problem lies with me being slow and careless at ready chunks of words. then i had to read the question 2-4 times before i can answer the questions... i hate it. totally.
with all the time i had to waste, i could not check my section B.

this is a depressing start of the week.

i can only say i'm getting sleepy already.
that happens when it gets rather dark in the house. cant it just rain?

sigh

<|3:24 PM|>

Sunday, October 05, 2008

haha, so complicated.
yesterday went for some great family gathering dinner. 3 sides ba.
my grandfather + his 2 sisters's + children + grandchildren

inclusive of a bunch of never seen before relatives. in total got about 30 people + 2 maids.
hey why does the maids get to come along too?

there was a big big big problem with calling people.
what do you call your grandfather's older sister's eldest son's wife? chinese is??????
english was easier. auntie.
when children can call by name as they same generation.
melissa and ryan. o_O
then still got joseph and joshua

surprise surprise~

reached home only at 11pm lor.
dinner started at 7pm.
but we were suppose to reach at 6.30pm.
oh well, VERY WASTE TIME!!!
know earlier i dont go le lor.
10 chapters more!

edit 2.37pm:
7 chapters more!

<|11:37 AM|>

Friday, October 03, 2008

i'm saying this again.
i'll miss my seniors.
this year was enjoyable.
but it is not the end.

<|8:29 PM|>

first time i felt ehist paper was relatively well done.
but i'm really hoping i do well. or i'm so dead.

i focused on stalin and establishing peace. didnt study fascist japan.
and yay, the questions for establishing peace were like the easiest.
but i wonder if my points are correct, the way i phrase them.

C&C questions are horribly done actually. 1 similarities and 1 differences. could not bring out anything else. never tried on purpose or tone. i cant do it.
reliability was still ok. but i wrote 2 reliable and i could not find an unreliable point.
inference was SUPER easy. it was just that COLLECTIVISATION WAS VERY SUCCESSFUL!
hahaha, then i crapped half the page with CK.

PHYSICS, BIO, EMATHS!
CHIONG AR!

<|2:09 PM|>

Thursday, October 02, 2008

haha, a quiz i saw on the forum. webby is: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

true for some parts. not so true for some.
haha.
chem was relatively ok. better than expected.
but wth, already got 1 error about the gas that burns in air. IT IS HYDROGEN!!! it suddenly stroke me about the highly flammable hydrogen balloon thing that they later changed it to helium.
zzz...

<|3:22 PM|>

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

HAPPY CHILDRENS' DAY!

wahahaha!
i'm in a celebrating mood!

i'm celebrating because of...

history!

lol. i finally started it la. despite it being the subject with the least chapters, i was too lazy to start...
tomorrow is chem and i dont know if i even want to go to school early...
maybe i wont. but i'm tempted to.
i dont know why.

5 more papers for me!
ALL MUST CONTINUE TO JIAYOU!

"words may not ease the pain to the people i hurt, but i would like to use this opportunity to seek forgiveness deeply inside me."
~LoVe~

<|7:05 PM|>