*The future awaits us~*

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

i suppose, i'm just an unlucky person...
a lot of things just appears against me.
yea, but i have to live with it. somehow...
this is the results:
http://www.orchidbowl.com.sg/14th_National_Schools_Tenpin_Bowling_Championship_2007_C_Division.html

i hate the fact that i could not complain about my bad scores to my team mates during the competition. i just didnt feel right.
and i was rank 43, just below jenna who is 42. i'm actually not satisfied even after improving and overcoming my fears.
most did as expected, some did better, some did worse. its really a total mess...
i bet no one expected i could hit 188 and 177. even dava... he was like really happy i hit 188. he stresses the others out by sort of scolding them when they did not do well. my sudden high game, cant find the cause. unless looking at supportive messages helped me.
177, 121, 109
up to my 5th game, my average was still 149. but i screwed the last game... T_T
i was really very tired and sometimes i get double vision and a bit giddy. cant help it... everything was still fine until i kept hurting myself. injuries... bruises, scratches... sick
i dont suppose i would get enough rest tonight. 2 tests, a thick stack of homework. how to relax? tomorrow's 2.4run is definitely screwed. run at 4pm... which is a lot of time to rest and get mentally prepared.
haix, wish me luck. the so called annual event. 1 year once, so why not do well?

<|7:31 PM|>

Monday, July 30, 2007

i dont know to be happy or sad... aiya, i'm just confused...
today is a total mess... what a mess...
firstly, i really hope i didnt screw up my spa. i was not at ease and my stomach was churning... i kept worrying the results are recorded wrongly lor... as i used the wrong test tube, labels not correct.
secondly, cchms girls at the moment ranks 6... so still got hope of getting 4th but very freaking slim... last 3 games tomorrow is really crucial. we either make it or break it. i really want to tell the others to give it all they have, but i cant seem to mention it. neither would they listen...
thirdly, lit is still not done and i forgot that i aint really free tomorrow. 1.15-2.45 thats all the time i have. wednesday need complete leh...
forthly, i starting to worry about my pft... 2.4 run, 5 items... no confidence left...
and there is more, but not fang bian to post...
sian, i wan my friends come support, but also like very weird inviting some of them... dava wants them to be those that will scream, then other than joseline, cannot think le. stupid thing about the consent forms for the supporters. so i shall not bring any...

<|5:37 PM|>

Friday, July 27, 2007

yay! I NEVER FELT SO GOOD!
hmm... i screwed up my science test today. 10+ marks fly~ i would be shock to do well. SHOCK INDEED!
nvm that, spoil my mood.
although its 3 games, but it so rocked! but the sad part was... i could not get all excited as my team mates were not doing well... right and they kept blaming themselves, jilyn even cried for erm, failing to pull us up? =\ very little hopes were on us remember?
158, 101, 188
screwed the second game, other than 1 strike, and the last frame spared, the rest were open... my average got screwed like that... darn... so my average was 149 which increases my average of 15 games to 131+
188 was also cchms girls' highest today... so uh... dava praised me?!?! yea... so i suppose its going to be higher expectations from me now. i bet the other girls felt very bu shuang... the way they all ignored me... like wth...
its still not enough, i was suppose to take revenge!! i have to increase my average to 135!!! then i wont let myself down. and i still havent get a 200 game leh!!! haix...
tuesday will be the final 3 games and i really have to give it the most i can!
in addition, the principal supports us and allows us to bring supporters! dava says each girl can get 2 supporters... but i not sure who i should invite, and that supporter has to support...

<|7:44 PM|>

Thursday, July 26, 2007

i feel weird... outside cold, inside hot and that does not feel nice...
i just want to sleep... but tomorrow got science test and i did not have a chance to study.
oh yea, so i would not be at home now if some people could just stop cutting me off when i am talking and even listen!
i bought a mixture of nuts and i dunno what for homec, looks good and i hope it taste good...
tomorrow's match is at 2.30 so we are leaving at 12.45 or 1pm. hmm... leave class at 11.30 leh. since we start at 2.30, most likely we will end at 5.30 and reach school around 6.30pm. late sia, but i do wish if anyone that will be eating dinner outside before going home, to let me join them...

anyone?
oh well, i shall rest till 5 before i go to study... i have yet to do my homework!!

<|2:22 PM|>

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

i'm really stressed... tests and more tests, competition and more competition... i'm still quite screwed... i really can fall asleep in class lor, somemore the weather so nice to sleep... but i still got plenty of work to catch up so no nap chance.
my arm is only feeling slightly better cause we had to write a lot today, cant rest it. english compo, chinese compo, geog wb, geog retest and australian maths competition... imagine the pressure. ~_~
i do hope bowling will not cause me to seriously injure my arm... currently, my back swing can only go to about 15degree before i feel the sharp piercing pain... so i dont know how to bowl.
ahhhh, i got to take my spa test next week since tomorrow i will be away. science test on friday, studying tomorrow. homec things, i forgot to buy my nuts, MUST get tomorrow. and 2.4km run... i wont take it tomorrow because i would be bowling on friday. that means more time for me to be mentally prepared. =X
there would be a trip to the NEWater plant in august, around 14 or 15... when i saw the consent form, the first thing i felt was "OH NO! clashing again..."
these few months, i would be very stressed. so many tests to prepare for, so many competitions to attend... streaming in a few more months. oh goodness, what can i do?

<|5:28 PM|>

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

i'm typing this with my right hand on a cushion, so i am only using my left hand. even lifting it hurts, imagine how it was to bowl...
doubles suck, they suck... and i will always want people like j away from my lane. i hate the shrieking and i think she just attract attention, more than sherri but less than tze yeng. just start crying and everyone goes to comfort her...
not like i can be compared. i still hate the fact that although i'm on the same lane as jilyn, the supports cheer for jilyn more than they cheer for me. yea but whatever, its just unfair.
wait, nothing on earth is fair!
i was venting my anger while sitting down... till the point my knuckles had bruises...
i kept telling myself why should i bother, but it really irritated me.

141, 118, 120, 136, 91, 147
average is lower than my singles... and that 91 was pathetic, broke my clean record of all games above 110... haix
6 more games, and i heard we would be bowling with SJI! woots~ that is so going to disturb some girls...
i'm evil... until the time i fully take revenge, i should rest...
geography retest and chinese compo on i dunno what tomorrow...

<|5:20 PM|>

Monday, July 23, 2007

so i am suppose to have my geog retest at 4hm classroom at 1.15pm tomorrow...
great news... 4hm... 1.15... they havent end lesson o.o
and i wont be back by then. i would be bowling~

<|7:42 PM|>

yippie~
i rank 55 for the singles!!! which is the 5/12 place for the girls of cchms... and i thought i did quite badly...
and good news to myself,
i beat the one who complaint that i pulled down her score. the one that talked bad about me and if i was not wrong, cursed me LAST YEAR.
its payback time~ ^^

tomorrow's the doubles and i do hope my friends would at least give me some support?

all the best for the doubles!~

<|5:50 PM|>

Sunday, July 22, 2007

i'm better now, somehow...
hehe, this week i will have only wednesday free... and i hope there wont be training or i'll never be able to catch up with my studies. i keep missing maths, science, lit and hcl -_-" but luckily i can self study at home.
oh goodness, literature... the presentations, evaluations and reflection. i will miss group 1-3 presentation, then it will be mine. a poem... and my group members are all not poetic? that includes me. darn...
haha, 23rd, 24th and 27th, i will be leaving class at 10.45am. and only 24th and 27th i will be bowling. =\ then 26th, i will be out almost whole school day. but i have to come back for the last lesson-acc and 2.4km run in the afternoon.
AHHHH~ but i believe i can make it!
=D

<|5:52 PM|>

Friday, July 20, 2007

so yea, im getting depressed...
now i'm thinking of the fact i might skip lesson or something...
biofest... yes, we all made it and i have to set up everything on 14-16 august. cant remember what needs to be done on those dates.
and yes, we only have 2 surviving fishes which in the end, we do not need them!!!
-_-" so i made tian qing maintain our project for nothing. we are only using posters and not any other things... i suppose we can throw the filters away?

<|7:42 PM|>

up to now, i'm still in a mess...
i keep getting the thought of a clear separation of the popular and not popular. and of course, i'm part of the not popular.
i still remember, sherri asked me to go tm with her, and she invited the rest. some agreed but later decided not to go. erm, that was like after seeing me going? so i went with her and took some neoprints, >_> i hate doing such things... just because i didnt want to be alone at home.
and i chose not go with the others yesterday. EVEN though i would be alone again...
they didnt ask me, which shows they dont want me to go. everytime it happens...

now, as i'm alone(again), i wish to go out with my friends for bowling. at least i would not be feeling alone and down. i also want to train up and prove myself to the others that i can be just as good as them...
i want to, and i can always go alone, but i want company!!

~~hear my lonely cries~~

<|6:47 PM|>

Thursday, July 19, 2007

today was the singles for me ^^
firstly, i pity those that end school at 2.15, which includes my classmates... woops, i'm like home at 1pm today...
i'm not satisfied with my half of my 6 games but, i have to be satisfied?
my whole team was all erm, making me stressed as they did not bowl as well.
seriously, cchms(G) was just a disgrace... MGS, TKGS, SSP all bowled so well, yet we could even hit below 100?!? x_X
i had a weird pattern in the 6 games heh. 141, 110~, 110~, 140~, 110~, 140. can see or not? it either lands in the 140 range or 110 range. sick...
i dont know why, but i bowl better when someone cheers for me... only once in a while i would hear a "GO JOAN~" from behind. most of the time is mgs girls shouting and cheering.
i endured my 6 games with some tears... glad i bought mint sweets but i did not get my green tea!!
it was at the 5th game when i got really fustrated. first my middle finger got squashed by a ball and resulted in me not able to finger the ball. i was lost, so i got some mint to calm my nerve. not long, i dropped the ball and it went gutter, and coach LAUGHED at me. T_T stupid, i got really sad and i cried. but i managed to pick myself up later.

overall, i still believe i can do better! i do hope to get into at least top 20. i still want my 200++ game to claim $2 from mr dava. zzz... 12 more games to try. maybe tomorrow during training?

i'm wishing for a stronger support, maybe something to look at when i am stressed?

<|1:23 PM|>

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

some things just get freaky...
we were kind of divided to support different boys. then i didnt know where to go, and i was told that alvin specially requested me to support him. wth... and i bet tomorrow, he would be at my lane there.
the boys bowled all above 100, which is good. ryan bowled a highest of 200, guo an 205, zhen yu 199 and the rest not high enough.
this is pressurising... it was so cold when we were supporting as it was raining outside! darn, school did not rain lor! when we left it was still raining, so i helped provide umbrella service to the boys so their bags wont get wet. wth, most of their bags had their own raincoat -_-" weird but true... some things can just be unbelievable. so shirlyn and i fetched mr dava and mdm meglina to the bus.
HORRIBLE... first mr dava splashed a puddle of water on my legs, then he put his hand on my shoulder and was sort of pushing me forward. !!! i felt sick in the stomach...

my muscles are still aching and i am worried STILL. my 140 avg is bound to go ~~down~~ up! but i should always believe in myself =D

<|3:44 PM|>

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

my eyes hurt...
its sore and dry and i ran out of eyedrops!!! UHHH...
oh well... and some still think i wear contacts...
i'm still upset about missing so many important lessons and tests...
pe was bad, bad, bad... it started with 20 squats as mrs lim let us off late =\
then...
1 round around the lake, 40 crutches, 3 times shuttle run, 40 push ups, jumping 20m, 200 skips...
ok it made me ache from head to toe. if only it rained after we started running... i was like the fastest for the jumping lor, 13 jumps to finish the distance... that was like a big distance each time.
with the aches, i could not bowl properly. it was painful to sit, stand and slide. T_T sickly. i also hope that kennard did not tio dengue as he is currently still running high fever.

off to get heat rub on my legs xD

<|8:24 PM|>

Monday, July 16, 2007

i was BORED~

What's your name spelt backwards?
-naoJ

What did you do last night?
-i did HW! and study, and watch tv, and... eat, sleep, bathe, use computer. typical

The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
-Maple patch version 43 -_-"

Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?
-Never?

Last week you swam in a pool?
-i cant swim like uhh...

What are you wearing?
-sch uniform at this hour...

How many cars have you owned?
-plenty, toy ones

Type of music dislike most?
-english music somehow

Are you registered to vote?
-i'm not 21 yet

Do you have cable?
-nope

You like anyone right now?
-erm, and he doesnt know._.

Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
-why not? but firstly i might faint on the way down.

Shower, morning or night?
-both

Best movie you've seen in the past month?
-i did not watch movie cause no one wants to watch with me

Favorite pizza toppings?
-extra cheese^^

Chips or popcorn?
-popcorn

What cell phone provider do you have?
-singtel

Have you ever smoked peanut shells?
-no

Orange juice or apple?
-Orange juice

Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?
-i had lunch today at joseline's house. hmm there was: cherie, liming, yule, ruishan and joseline

Favorite chocolate bar?
-van houten chocolate with hazelnuts (heck the spelling)

Who is your longest friend and how long?
-Christy? 3~4 years? i cant remember

Have you ever won a trophy?
-yea. P1 lor, i noob

Sprite or 7-up?
-sprite?

Ever thrown up in public?
-yea, on the bus, but in a plastic bag.

Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?
-true love, money does not equals everything

Do you believe in love at first sight?
-yea...

Spongebob or jimmy neutron?
-jimmy neutron the boy genuis..

Did you have long hair as a young kid?
-honestly, i wish i could, but it was only this year i had long hair.

What message is on your voicemail machine?
-i dont have voicemail...

Where would you like to go right now?
-SOMEWHERE

What was the name of your pet?
-timmy, tammy, and 9 other guppies with no name

What kind of bag do you have, and what's in it?
-slingbag which is empty at the moment cause it was soaking wet...

What do you think about most?
-dunno
----
1. Song playing at the moment?
-silence, no song playing lol

2. Reasons for living?
-because i want to live -_-"

3. Do you think you're ok?
-define ok

4. Ever donated blood?
-no, but i would

5. Favourite colours?
-green and any shade of green...

6. Accessories you usually wear?
-errr... none

7. One song to describe heartbreak in the past?
-gee i dunno...

8. Last place you went to?
-the toilet!

9. Last person you went out with?
-myself? i went out alone...

10. The most exciting sport?
-BOWLING~ damn it... competition so exciting!!

11. Ever had a baby?
-ehhh...

12. Movie you want to watch?
-anything

13. Any piercing?
-nope and dont think i can

14. The most romantic gift?
-i dunno

15. Acted on stage before?
-yea, in kindergarten and earlier this year.

16. Struck by lightning before?
-if i did, i wont be even blogggin now

17. Danced with your loved ones before?
-nope

18. Ever wished you could turn back the time?
-yea, plenty of times

19. What would you do if you woke up one day to find yourself to be with someone of the opposite sex? What do you think?
-first reaction, scream! then i dunno cause it depends

20. One song that's meaningful to you?
-朋友变情人再变朋友 by 王品冠

21. Last person you met for the first time?
-edward aka woshiED

22. What will you be doing tomorrow?
-school, bowling, and the usuals?

23. Ever thought of robbing a bank?
-nope, i doubt i would

24. One thing you totally regret doing/done recently.
-telling joseline something

25. Do people like you?
-doubt so, but i hope so

26. What was the last game you played on the computer?
-stupid sia, maple...

27. The colour of your mobile phone?
-white, red and blue... i dont like it

28. Do you hate someone at the moment?
-i try not to hate...

29. What do you wish to happen now?
-be surprised

30. Last time you ate pizza?
-just now during lunch!

31. Ever been given a ring?
-ring, the object or call? yes...

32. Do people think you're weird?
-most likely

33. Movies now showing that you hate?
-what movie is showing now?

34. Most important thing in your room?
-of course, my bed! comfort zone~

35. Last movie watched?
-hmmm... cant remember

36. Last television show watched?
-i watching tv at the moment "野蛮亲家"

37. Do you smile alot?
-not really

38. Ever called a person useless?
-yea, by a teacher

39. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
-quite

---
end of boredom...

<|4:54 PM|>

Sunday, July 15, 2007

19july is like almost here!!!
i'm prepared... ^^
i hope i am... =\

meanwhile...
someone called me maple addicted!
which so reminds me of someone--- msaddicted!
ok its the same meaning.
my guild master asked me to watch a lvl 110~ priest train and it will motivate me to train to higher lvl.
msaddicted the 111 priest,
hello, can let me watch you train? =D

<|5:08 PM|>

Friday, July 13, 2007

aw man, friday the 13th, black friday. cursed. actually, not really...
i trust i can score for this history test. i HOPE x_X
sick, hmec was yuck... =D i was saved by qian hui and thus not having joseline as my partner! =X having her as a lab partner is bad enough... evil~
we cooked macoroni cheese and it tasted floury... YUCK!
the other lessons were fine. mr chong had his last lesson with us as mr khoo is back le. we made loads of noise and he could not handle us ^^
was slacking around and not so much with the other bowlers. i still feel out of the place can, though now not so much. ya and they were like "oh you forgot your ball!" ha, like they have not known what i often do. oh no its sad lor...
today's game was terrible, and i was like, stop bothering me can, i need to refocus and no twist my hand. >_< but still it did not work. lane 4 on black friday? 死路一条! sigh...
when we came back to school, we all slacked aound the foyer. and we were watching the sj people do stretching after pt. waited and waited for like an hour before we left. it was like sj people already finish everything and go home le lor... i didnt want to walk alone and jilyn wanted to wait for every one to go first so we sat there very long. yea, so i was there looking around...
on my way home i met CHOCOLATE~ the cat. she was so bad to me... i only took a photo of her, then after that, she grabbed my hand and scratch and bit my hand. T_T now got cuts at my wrist, the spot emo people go slit their wrist that part.
i feel better after talking to some people yesterday. cheered me up.
but one thing is that, only a few come to my blog to tag. not important actually =\

<|8:14 PM|>

Thursday, July 12, 2007

history test tomorrow and i am trying hard to memorise dates. memorising dates is like memorising birthdays or hp no...
to me, that = HARD!!!
i'm a pathetic person who cant remember my own hp no. sad hor?
from what i remembered, there are only a few dates:
8 dec 1941- a bombing in singapore and invasion at north of malaya by the japanese
16 feb 1942- British surrendered singapore to the japanese.
15 aug 1945- japanese surrendered after 2 bombs dropped on their 2 major cities.
6 aug 1945- little boy on hiroshima
9 aug 1945- fat man on nagasaki
then i dunno le... =X
today's lessons were quite boring but not compared to almost all of humanities...

we had 1 tea appreciation lesson and it cost $3... walao eh, so ex... and i choose to sit infront of the tea set to do the steps. fun ma =) i still can remember what i learnt last time, which is good. the tea was a little bitter. many found it very bitter but i felt it was refreshing and 香. quite nice actually.

we ended a bit later and i followed sylvia and ruishan to the canteen. sylvia bought ice kachang. i saw jilyn and her sis so i went to help them at the notice board. she forgot the glass panel can remove de. -_-"

walked out of school and went to buy donuts. i still prefer the last donuts i ate...
and then i was home and here. =D

<|2:40 PM|>

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

i just wanted to chat, but i didnt get to chat.
so i stoned, and stoned, and stoned...
even getting a little rest was not possible.
-
i dont get why i all of the suddden lost any form of confidence. it was that split second after coming out of the GO. uh...
i stood at the lanes, no form of stress. but, i just felt i could not do well. pain, i just felt the pain... my knee, my finger, my thumb, and also my eyes...
i just totally gave up. zzz...
on the bus ride home, i was damn lonely... the others in front were like having a lot of fun laughing away. T_T

i hate myself for being able to predict upcoming events... i hate it! the feeling just comes and i dont know what to do. my dreams are also freaky and somewhat real. oh dang... how? =(

<|8:03 PM|>

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

argh, i'm worried...
...
...
VERY WORRIED!!!
but is not worried about my game, its jilyn's game.
~_~ she's my partner yet i cant do anything to help...

pe today was horrendous. its like i have no self-motivation. a form of giving up. i knew it, 2.4 is not my type... if i could only shorten the distance =\ i am speed, not distance. thus i say i can barely jog... my brisk walk is like jogging, my jogging is like running, my running is like sprinting. o.o i'm screwed... oh goodness, i completely forgot the in-in-out part, no wonder tired so easily...
I WILL DO BETTER!!! ~~if you're there...~~

i consider today one of the slacker days. we only spent 1 lesson in class. the other 4 were out of class. pe, science lab lesson, elit lecture and IT. tiring...
bowling even more tiring lor... carry here, carry there, climb here, climb there. my knee hurts sia...
=\ its just 9 days away to the competition. and we actually have to support the boys... WHY?!?!

<|7:47 PM|>

Monday, July 09, 2007

OMG~ i am being very evil!
i'm crazying torturing joseline by making her guess this certain person.
the questions i avoid is the key to the person.
awww... so sad she doesnt understand.

2.4km or circuit run tomorrow? endure joan~
=\
i'm feeling feverish you know... even had a second nose bleed today -_-" haix

edit:ok she got it..

<|7:38 PM|>

Saturday, July 07, 2007

darn... now pe is on tuesday... means have to start wearing tie on mondays >_>
i'm now deciding if i should skip running and whatever thing during pe that is involved in pft...
i'm not afraid of the 5items, i'm just afraid of 2.4 =\ strive for a gold?
gees i'm not sure when pft will be yet, but i heard its week 5...
well, whats best for me?

<|10:28 AM|>

Friday, July 06, 2007

=D
good mood today! then in the good mood i managed to bowl a 191 and a 158!!! ^_^
so this week's score was:
170+140+156+191+158=815
so average is:
815/5=163
SO NICE LA~
but i am still pressurised...
for c'div, the girls and boys are on different days! now thats confusion and havoc because the girls are seeded. but i really hope that we are not suppose to support and boys and the boys support us, or it will be just pointless and wastes precious lesson time.
singles: 19july(thurs) 8.30-11.30
doubles: 24july(tues) 12.30-3.30
team: 27july(fri) 12.30-3.30 and
31july(tues) 8.30-11.30
oh well. its the weekend and i shall chiong a lot of homework.
art on A3 or what?

<|6:09 PM|>

Thursday, July 05, 2007

now i am at home slacking and ENJOYING myself cause no one is at home (should stay in school and finish hw first).
tianqing told me to enjoy sec2... but really enjoying is not easy. i will try ~_~
nothing much today... only that my groupmates cleared up the fish tanks and kept the last 2 fishes. now the fishes are in the classroom and i dont need to go so far to see them. i doubt they would last that long anyway.
art was something i like doing but not the way i like to do. i want to do charcoal drawing though...
the thoughts of tests every week freaks me out. then the first day of the competition should be 19th july if we are under seeded. morning match if i not wrong... checked: http://www.orchidbowl.com.sg/champ_results/index_CDivision.htm
maths wb i delayed so long, shall start today. and i shall also go memorise the gong han for tomorrow's test. =\
170, 140, 156... and on... i hope my average for this week is good =D

<|2:28 PM|>

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

get a life?
whats the problem? but i dont really care do you?
whatever~
argh, nothing to blog about.
sian la, total humanities day has past... (history, acc, elit, hcl on ancient poets, geog) o_O bad hor?
i heard timetable is going to change again but its not quite a good thing. *prays hard*

<|9:01 PM|>

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

._. it was suppose to be an average tuesday. but it was more freaky than expected...
2 considered worst thing to happen to a girl... if u get me =\ and 1 with a bit cranky mood because of that thing...
WHAT AM I TALKING!?!?!
nvm...
some disturbing things happened... dont feel like elaborating. but it was just a sudden, sudden... argh, heart race. bad, bad, bad... i just felt weird. i just wanted to be alone. peace and quiet... music solved it =D
but i do wish it can solve my competition fear. actually its just the fact i am faced to partner someone which i wont be able to bowl well with. =X no offence but my concentration gets burst the minute i am with that certain person. its either: yuping, jenna or jilyn. but i really am not sure why!
from now to the competition, i will bravely face the facts and prove to myself, i will not be affected by these little things. WILL!
oh damn, the 1 week morning sms got into my system and it felt weird this morning when i woke up. 6am wake up system, me and ed's entertainment. =) brightens up the morning.
wishes for a better term and i better start doing my hw =(

<|8:57 PM|>