ahh... started the day with interesting facts like the dead man expressway or something. then i realise i dream so much is because i not stressed, can get into deep sleep easily. =) then we watched LA BI XIAO XIN! haha, we are forever children... ^^
PE, we failure la, no insult but even though my group had more people, we were still very weak =\ somehow, and i was really tired. i drank the whole bottle of green tea very fast xD very shuang...
got back my science paper, 22/25 de. then i stare at it, i can kill myself! first mistake errr, i didnt know need to put. second one, why didnt i think that you wont use ear protectors in the house... erm, last one can bang wall, i keep reminding people to draw arrows and i actually forgot to draw mine!!! >_< WALAO LA!!! T_T nvm, 22 is way past A1. =X
dnt i slacked and went around helping all i can, i made this stopper thing to prevent the fish from going in circles, then i put glue and it kept coming out so i let it dry completely and it took rather long, so i didnt do painting =X i also dont want to be the only one painting, very paiseh. i helped zuo hong do some hammering and i hammered my finger =\ but not pain uh...
geography.... i was erm... emotionless? i got 15/20 for the recent test... then when mrs ho talked about eastings and northings, i was trying to teach ruishan about the best way to remember... and i got scolded, but i felt i did nothing wrong so why should i be afraid? meh, i feel like its been a long time since i last cried or was going to cry when the teacher scolded me. errr...
had lunch and slacked around playing the car racing game on joseline's handphone. its much better than my handphone games... i got 6 games but none of them is as fun as racing... =\ when for assembly and it ended at 3.20pm! GO HOME~
like real... i still had project work. waited a bloody long time before they came... was talking to mr remus and he said something like they being late is expected. was walking in and out of the warm and stuffy tissue culture lab. there was like a lot of noise coming from 4th floor old block and i decided to look... i even heard a scream, but all were boys so i was like -_-" they also ran around... collected about 30litres of water... its a lot of water... 10 litre for each 'tank' and we made a lot of mess with spilt cch lake water everywhere. i didnt go wash my hands when the others did... they left first and then i left not long after, i recorded the ammonia and nitrate level at the start... cch water very very green... but not disgusting la... nature mah, blah blah... mr remus always ask why i like no need study de, every time i will say i very free de... =X
boredly walked out alone until i spotted a group of boys infront talking loudly and laughing. i look closely, i saw tian qing, so i smsed him ask him look behind. but he did not realised he recieved a message. he only saw me when i was next to him. and i went "hi.", his friend went "TIAN QING FAN CLUB!"... i laughed and replied something like no worries i dont belong there... that friend of his was describing how the sec1&2 see tian qing and say hi, i went on elaborating that the sec 1 st john de very enthu... then that friend of his, clarence, went "i also got a clarence fan club, people in geylang see me will say hi de." i was like LOL! GEYLANG! xD rofl... then i decided to walk faster a bit and then they still talking and playing, i turned when someone threw an empty bottle on the floor. do you know you are polluting the environment??? >=( uh, i heard them talking about what lung too much pressure then affect the thing outside cause too much stress or something. i was like -_-" can mind what you speak? >_<
reached tkgs bus stop and i was still bored, then i saw shalin! bus 32 past but it was so warm that i didnt want to take a non-aircon bus... so waited on. if shalin and fiona were taking 43 i would not have taken it... shalin was kind of treating me as a test subject and showing other people that i was there. so many tkgs girls around me... a sea of green~ yea and the next bus that was going to the front of my house was 10. and tian qing and friend boarded it... 10, urgh, i still remember =\
shalin was going on about what being feminine and me tying my hair... i was smsing that time she say was smsing boyfriend... -_-" i got boyfriend i happy la, which guy i like will like me? as in i really know de... uh, i am still glad to see the guy i like happy =X no offence shalin...
wa i sms until i reach home and tian qing reached home x_X
haha, TOMORROW LABOUR DAY! NO SCHOOL!!! =D
<|5:30 PM|>
yes, i finally made a good choice to not go to that dunno what chinese thing after school at 2.30-3.30. when i wanted to go home, some people didnt care and just walk off. somehow if i never remind them i am still around, they would have forgotten i am there. hmph! ya, if i stayed back i would have been caught in that bloody heavy rain... i would have been soaked from head to toe if i went lor! so HENG...
it was chinese lesson when we were trying to choose 5 people for that chinese thing... then i happen to be free but i said that i wont go unless i am told what we will do. and my name went on the board:
1)Joan <33
not long after more names joined, then i went to get rid of the '<33'><33'
and then sylvia made it... 'Joan <33 PTQ' and i went WALAO then went to clean it away...
my opinion about this, even if it is true (you wont know), i definitely have no chance. but i can tell you no way its like that... uh...
walked out with qian hui and her juniors and they made 'friends' with 3 girls from sec 2. uh, bad influence eh... then i found out lennon(dunno how to spell) is also born on 9th may! COOL~ the 3rd person already!
chocolate chip muffin with cookies for the birthday babies i suppose. and cookies for everyone? but i intend not to give those that never pay the birthday fund the cookies. fair right? INDEED! so chen rui shall not get his birthday gifts! =D haha
<|4:34 PM|>
hah, i still laughing over yesterday's matter. but today ar... crappy >_> *f5-ing*
project work ar? problems and more problems, that is worth learning from. we learnt physics too =\
do i look like a free loader to you? HAR!!! like wtf, i was the one making sure i come every project work unlike you. i did most of the scouting for items we need, i even did without being asked, cause i treasurer, thats my job. i did the most reading for the report... i tried to come out with solutions to solve the problems. i did the dirtier jobs like cleaning and collecting lake water even in the rain; unlike you making a noise about getting dirty. i did the carrying without really complaining, so what if i got more strength??? i didnt complain when it ended late, and i turned up on time! lalala~ still say i free-loader as i was not doing the log book report? i helped you guys recall what we did... since it was in my memory and it was not really my job... walao, who insisted my handwriting sux and yours was nicer??? hem... nvm, say all you like, it wont stay in me too long.
uh, about the recent matter of the girl climbing into the drain and got drowned by the fast flowing water, it reminded me of my favourite childhood activity! i often go to this very deep monsoon drain to collect saga seeds. hmm... i seen it flood before, very fast and noisy >_< i guess i was like lucky? the drain is about 2-2.5m deep and it overflows when there is rain ._. it cant beat that bigger drain which i been inside once =\ oh gosh, back then, i could barely swim then, but it was better than now... argh nvm la...
hmm... i wish to meet up with brokenexile members but the thought of all the members happen to be boys, i am freaking out... argh, i dont suppose they would do anything to me, cause i got special protection from my darling ason^^ walao la i miss him so much la, he go study... shit, shouldnt i be studying now?!?!!!!
=\ collecting $1 for birthday funds but i emphasise that the cake will be a muffin with a candle on top. =) easiest to settle for this mixture of girls and boys. i cant afford to scout presents for most of them as the first one gives me problems already. xuewen leh, what should i do? at this rate i can buy some things for the class! the birthday fund should have about $40 and i only need like <$10 so ya!
err... i still owe joseline a file birthday present! 9th may all right! what about my other friend?muffin for you??? =D
<|8:18 PM|>
TIAN QING GOT A FAN CLUB!?!?!?!?!?!
woah woah, that was said by his friend... >_< didnt expect joseline to actually shout his name so many times. first few times: tian qing and friend no respond, i told joseline to stop it. of course never la... then when joseline shouted louder, both of them turned and we laughing, his friend said "ooo tian qing got a fan club!" WE RAN FROM HER!!! =x she wants to add him on msn but then i scared she start sprouting nonsense... should i tell?
-_-" COLD... if he really does, only joseline is part of the fan club =D
ha, how interesting... i was also surprised la, i only went i see tian qing and then she did that.
._. i managed to break my 65 marks barrier for chinese again. i got 70.5!!! that is the older test, not mid year de. =\ from the look of my mistake, i have learnt a word wrongly all along! DANG! and that word came out in mid year!!! NOOO!~ x_X
haix, i still got plenty of maths work to do. someone encourage me to do it leh... or at least i can get a competition to make me want to study... =\ or maybe i could challenge... XD
<|4:27 PM|>
i think i screwed up my chinese but then again maybe not. uh...
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http://www.blogthings.com/areyoupsychicquiz/">Are You Psychic?
just being bored...
<|1:11 PM|>
errr... i dont know la, but yesterday was indeed crappy. long time since i was so hyper! the time i spent with my classmates were not nice at all... they all complained about mrs lim picking on qh. lets go back... the reason they changed place was because qh and zh were talking TOOO much, and that gave the idea that they did not like mrs lim's lessons. then zh had to swap with april because i think mrs lim wants april to shut them up... but still, xh with zh still very noisy... on the other hand, qh still gave the buay song attitude, never pay attention during lesson, and also dont want to copy info given by mrs lim... and looks like everyone takes it as mrs lim picking on qh, but i still believe mrs lim wants qh to learn more and pay attention in class...
somehow, my thinking is always the minority, they insisted that mrs lim anyhow accused qh when qh really did not copy notes.
but still, everyone pitys qh right? can i have the rights to NOT agree?
>_> this seems like history and the making judgement thing...
speaking about history, yesterday we had geog and history test together, we were suppose to be given 1hour in total but we only had around 45mins to do. it resulted in the many failing to complete their work. i pray i did well, whenever i compare what i answered with people, i always seem VERY wrong... nvm
i was relieve school was over and i could go do my project work. followed my group mates to canteen to buy food twice... erm, i felt stupid when i went to say hi to my classmates and they DAO-ED me! zzz w/e
i rushed to finish my part before going to bowling. it was 2.35pm when i left the group. the bus leaves at 2.40pm so i was not late la. had a weird feeling telling me to not go through concourse so i did not. then i met someone! =D i talked a while before we split to go different place, of course i went for cca.
i was hyper and happy, even though my leg was hurting (wtf stupid soccer). was it the green tea or the person? i aint sure... although i knew i will most likely be replaced by the new sec 1 left hander, i was not worried, i did my best and i am proud of it, even if the outcome is not satisfactory, i am still glad i did my best. and then, i managed to increase my ball speed to 13++km/h from the usual 10++km/h =) i even managed to not use my wrist guard and was able to keep my wrist stable! 146, 147! that is like so nice!
mid year is coming, i must do well, then after that, i am going to reward myself! i will do my best!
screw my weird logics, but i still love them =D
<|10:37 AM|>
can i like errr at this?Your Personality Profile 
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<|10:21 PM|>
urgh... blogger hates me and my *ehem* post... >_> i REPOST tomorrow...
<|10:04 PM|>
haix... am i so insignificant? am i such an outcast? somehow, i do feel so...
i had to do finish my dnt before i could go for bowling, i rushed, but still a bit slow. BUT, I COMPLETED THE WHOLE STRUCTURE FIRST! i tried to do my best to get there on time... i wish i could. but still, i only recieved a call when the bus left. it seems like they never realised i was not present. yadayada...
i rushed out, and i even took a taxi there. i missed a lot of the training recently, i cant miss more... it did not make any sense. when i came, mdm meg asked me why i was late, then i explained. i even explained the part i did not eat my lunch yet. and she insisted i get food first before training. but i refused... i just had to bare the hunger. i did that many times, but i know it is not good. haix...
was a bit distracted very easily, i am still very disappointed with myself.
NAG-national age group
WTF! i wanted to join lor, but every time i hear them say about me join with sherri... i seriously NEVER saw the form until today. when they finished grouping up. zzz... ya la, i know i am such a NOOB at bowling. i am not wanted in any team. might as well i quit and join some other cca...
blah blah... i am not at all glad to have such "friends"... >_>
<|7:56 PM|>
yea i screwed up my homework doing the guild quest... and i had to rush all my work during recess!!
pe was soccer as usual, then somehow, my group has 2 of them very gentle kickers, and i was a bit hard on the ball from the bottom and the ball flew upwards towards mei xuan's face. =x paiseh... tiring~
~skip~
lunch, i stood around doing nothing much, was trying to calm myself down for the performance.
the performance was okay, and somehow i was afraid of screwing up. seriously, i dont like my voice on the mic... thats done, now what is next???
MID YEAR! time to start studying, screwing up is a bad choice... maple need wait for after exam that day can play... 9-5-2007! VERY SOON LOR!!!
my self motivation: i must do better than jun rui no matter what!!! x_X
haha, i just recieved a message from my guildmate:
"why you quit? the guild message says must invite you back leh."
o_O i guess, BrokenExile is not good-for-nothing... =D suddenly i feel so happy.
<|6:01 PM|>
yes, i dont know why am i so heartbroken by the way my guildmates treated me. it is only a game, yet it felt so much like real life, so much like how my life has been recently...
haix, it all started because of the stupid guild quest, everyone goes crazy over it... if only ason was around, everyone listens to him, the new recruits are crap, they think they are so powerful just because they are the higher level or the only of that certian job. i was the only priest, yet i had no say!
we needed co-operation, some at least, but no there was none.
i tried to help, but i got scolded. just because i was not in the main party of the so called person responsible to hit the statues. but the whole leader of the guild was in my party. yea so they told all of others not in arcnus party to shut up and dont talk. i was standing around the area with no one. then i saw the statue light up, but since they told me to shut up, i didnt say. then they scolded me for not helping. you told me to shut up what, and i listened.
yes, and we failed TERRIBLY! who is to blame? ask those people who think they are the best! haix, it ended and many were still blaming each other. so i was telling my bro from holy innocent(rings some bell) that i want to quit. and he followed me, so we left. terrible people...
i really wish ason was back to stop all these from happening. T_T I MISS U DEARLY!!! last time i always get some chance of deciding what the guild should do. yea, i suppose i am still ason's gf, just with new people, they dont know anything.
somehow, it feels a bit like 2hm sometimes...
<|8:40 PM|>
phew, finally done with the clothes for my distant aunt's wedding (my grandfather's sis's daughter-->in simple, my dad's cousin... dunno la)
the amazing thing is... i will be green/turquoise all over! >_< just havent gotten the accessories, who asked me to be allergic to compound metal that even makes it harder for me to get anything. uh, i cant wear earrings cause of this fact and that i dont have a left ear lobe to talk about... totally hard...
woo... the skirt and high heels would spoil my rough image but then, it will only be for 1 night... i cannot imagine how i will look on that day, 12/5/07. urgh
i might decide to wear that skirt or high heels some other time. high heels >_< how how how?!?!
never mind
i still havent completed my work! T_T
<|8:14 PM|>
how can i not agree to these?? =x
You Are Emerald Green 
<|7:59 PM|>
200th post, wow...
sports meet, i was expecting to meet some other of my ex classmates, but i only got to see 1. haix... it was plain boring...
>_< the weather was crappy... rain and scorching hot heat...
one part,
...
...
!!! the teacher told me to stand up and tuck in my shirt and not fold... but,
I DID NOT FOLD!!! I TUCKED IN JUST IT COMES OUT EASILY!
T_T sigh no one ate lunch with me, all go what bedok and go home to eat. so i walked in circles around sing post and then asked to go to joseline's house.
if only someone can accompany me wherever i go...
i wish you could have noticed me then...
<|5:45 PM|>
i am surprised i could actually survive the countless tests these few days. phew... now what is left is for me to complete my homework and study. 34 pages of infomation... crazy sia, i wonder how long i will take lor!!! then still need "digest" the infomation and answer the questions for the report for project work.
omg, i think the stress got to me today. firstly, the assembly programme rehearsal during english. i was still unsure on what to wear... lime green shirt and jeans? i suppose... they told me anything, so i anything also lor... rather confused with the "fast forward" part since there is no han ren to practise with. lets hope it goes well, i not sure if i can handle the standing on stage throughout part, i want a chair >_<
at the littlest part of 2ly and joseline going there, i kept going omg... but gladly nothing happened. i damn not focused today. open han ren's locker put his books in, i close tat time, put back lock, dunno what happen, the lock got locked up... then had to get people to break the lock. haix, i feel so paiseh...
and due to my diverted attention, my left foot got a cut, by the jutting out part of the power supply in the dna hub. it hurts badly, despite it was the part where my socks were folded...
haix, the exams are even nearer now...
<|6:01 PM|>
DIE!!! i am sure i will die tomorrow. history, maths and chinese, errr... i lost any mood to study, and nothing sinks in...
stress, depressed? what can i say?
i wanted to accept these things, just that i tried to fit in, but it never did work out right...
its going back to those emo times, yea, and i dont know what to do.
i'm lost, someone guide me please...
<|9:27 PM|>
hmmm... i feel so much better after speaking out whatever i wanted to say. yea right, how hard can it be to handle the birthday on my own. stop telling me to find a partner, cause there is certianly no way for my partner to go out buy things with me. booo... stop looking down on me la. talking about birthdays... MAY--->month of so many birthdays... i do remember there is 7 classmates celebrating, 2 outside class people birthdays... !!!~ 9th may, i know 2 birthday people. i need 8 sets of presents, simple thing, and i intend to celebrate on the day of the last paper (also, the celebration of SA1, to celebrate before mourning over results =\)
i m very fair okay, dont make bias remarks infront of me. i will just start insulting. simple as that. its not possible to give everyone what they like and be fair at the same time. there is a way, but i will not give girls more and boys less. and even though a friend(joseline) is celebrating her birthday on 9/5, i still will not give her the best. i WILL be fair. >>>should i collect $1 or 50cents???
assembly performance brought forward to next week?!?! wtf... i hope my class wont screw up. and i realised today, that everyone treats this shabbily, and only i went to memorise the lines! i will give the hyper mood if someone will help me go high that day...
honestly, i said i PURPOSELY did not come back to class when yule called and messaged me. hmm... i was outside the class when i heard the noise and met alicia, so i went off with alicia to ignore the crappy celebration. cakes- the most messiest thing, go canteen and cut it for goodness sake!
whatever >_>
i dont look forward to tomorrow, a very TIRING and MESSY day.
take bus to sch at 6.30(wake up earlier), end lesson at 1.15, chiong somewhere to take geog test on population and settlements(suppose to take 2 weeks ago), rush back to class for chinese lesson for the suo duan thing, break a bit then go for MO training, CHIONG for bowling!!!
-_-" stress sia, i actually packed the whole day totally, i guess i have to start getting used to this rushing mood.
14 more days to the first paper T_T chiong!~~~
<|5:55 PM|>
more emo people around here... just that i aint sad since last night, lol... all that crapping with jr, laughed quite a bit. yea and i was sobbing a little before that. x_X
hmmm... sometimes i feel whatever i say is not being heard. many many many times would i feel they treat me like i am not there. let me give evidence:
birthday funds, i trust my turn wont come... very easily they will forget i m in welfare. so rotation is crap. i say i want do, i really want, but i dont get it. just like last year... haix, i realise whatever role i get, i will get replaced by someone else very fast. as in, i still have the name but no job is given to me... even if i am given the job, it will most likely be when i have totally no time or no mood.
during i&e, i wanted to help, and i had to find something to do, but when i ask if i can help do a certain job, i get no respond.
let me specify: i heard yiting say no more marshmallows, need repack. i went to help. but then she called liling help her! so i just walk off and i went "FINE!" and went around complaining i have no use for this i&e. i stand around and stone lor.
besides, i realised we dont really care how many sweets the person takes lor. 10 for $1... jr came that time i never count, just say 10. i trust he wont cheat us. it does not matter anyway. the good boy came to support my class. lol =D
project work, why do i feel like i m the only one interested in doing it? mr remus sent sms to me say to inform the others to collect the tanks on monday... should i even bother to find the rest? there is so much incompleted work for our project lor... haix
ar yes, i agree i should change my blog skin to something cheery, BUT NO SUNFLOWERS! x_X
<|8:37 PM|>
long time since i last cried. but today i can cry without anyone knowing as usual. i was crying a bit during cca but ya... T_T
national age group, i felt like i suck a lot... its like i found out when the people were pairing themselves up. i guess i am the only one without a so called partner. i felt offended when i heard the words, "still got sherri" -_-" i wanted to go, but then i dont feel like going with that bunch of people that dont seem to like me. is there a problem with me? if so then say it.
even still, i see coach leslie, wan smile also cant, i keep feeling that he finds me hopeless, there is 0 form of comunication between leslie and me...
i m just used to having people to point out my mistakes... but i really want to change for the better. someone, help me please...
i am being either replaced by someone else or i m treated like i dont exist... haix
i am sure i&e will be screwed... i wont help anymore ok?
<|8:20 PM|>
sadly, even if you dont feel embarrassed, you still have to think about the people around you...
i still wish i could be part of some united group... stop making me feel so out of place.
pe ar... i still think it is terrible for me to be the goal keeper, my reactions slow lor, LIKE HELLO!! the ball past then i can react... got my arm hit by the ball... damn pain la, i am a girl and they hit so hard. i highly recommend the volleyball people to be the goal keeper, they so rough and strong. whatever~
i still feel like an outcast... even though all were present on the bus but me, no one went to look for me, i was 100% sure someone knew where i was, but yes, i always end up alone.
its still good for me to solo, things will change har? my friends at art class were saying somethings about how they made friends with their current best friend. and i just sat there, stoned, and had nothing to say.
i do have some idea to help change april's character till it is less irritating. less but there is no chance or would anyone care?
NO
<|8:24 PM|>
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