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Friday, June 30, 2006

yesterday tian qing taught me a good way to run the 2.4km for pft:

" teach you something about 2.4km run.
dont drink too much water - you will pain here pain there while running
prevent yourself from getting leg cramp
while running catch your breathe in this manner- " suck in air(not too slow) 2 times, breathe out long one 1 time"
remain calm. motivate yourself say after this i can go buy coca cola.
for ur info, if you jog and stop, you will exhaust very fast. coz ur heart beat fast den suddenly slow then fast again, so you cannot run liao you must walk very fast, just dont stop. "

this should help me in running the 2.4km i cannot do so badly, i want to get gold again this year. this is my only weakness. i must succeed!!!
today was st john day and ncc day. so morning had the whatever thing that made us so blur. the composition test thing, i wrote very short. i kept flipping the dictionary which is Alan's... i so tired until put my head on the book also. so funny la... i laugh so much. cause kalvin said something about cheng chong wearing hush puppies underwear and the mummy poko pants thing! so damn funny la!!! i forget to bring then go with liming to 1LY to borrow dictionary. the geog teacher seems a bit erm... fierce... i dont think will be that bad la. lunch time, i run down to return the dictionary. surprisingly the lesson havent end yet but ended almost instantly after i came... i returned it through the window even though got something called the door. ryan came out of the class and was dunno doing what to his friend's sleeve. that guy was also in ncc. i am sure i no longer like ryan le, cause i see him got this heck care feeling, dont feel like avoiding him at all. hmm... i only stopped liking someone cause i may have fell for someone else. in the canteen met tian qing. he said a warm and friendly hi and also waved. he dont seem so freaked when he sees me now... i dont think i feel for anyone this time. bowling a bit siao. at first only got 3 of us then the other 3 came at 2.40pm. we played 5 games. my first game was 96 then 97, 110+, 148 and 120+. a bit weird. my leg was still pain and i walk abit weirly already. i bowled until my shoulders became really ached. freddy and his temper again... i still wonder why everytime he gets angry, he will always start staring at his handphone. so which made him angry, bowling or some message on the handphone?? not sure. walked out again to main road again.

<|6:50 PM|>

Thursday, June 29, 2006

i would not believe my senses just kept me away from a very painful news. well like last night's post, i gave up. this morning i heard from joseline that ryan likes someone in my class. like OMG! how come i managed to prevent some really sad thing from affecting me? wow?!?! do i really have this special sense? like i not sure la. still deciding if i should tell him the truth and wish him luck? joseline is easily tempted to tell a secret when pressurized. i will think of it again later. yesterday i heard today got phototaking for the class and i managed to only tell yun fan so about half the class brought their tie today. while waiting we saw tian qing running, and also he was skipping for a very long time. he seems so fit! not like me!!! messy phototaking session where i also helped to point out who ryan was... he kind of easy to describe. i still think they very compatible. we missed chinese and a bit of english. we had calligraphy where we were told a list of items we needed and i had half of them. looks like i have to go and find the rest myself. CME was relaxing as all we needed to do is fill some survey. then was music where we were learning history of music. boring... when leaving the class i have no idea why i took my pencil case. usually no one takes it along. then like err... i kind of had some use for my stationaries. we had to fill in a worksheet for music! wow... like again, i sensed something and it was correct... lit was boring. the teacher talk talk talk talk talk so much. sian until i want to sleep, luckily i prepared le. had lunch and was planning to go home when i saw ryan walking towards the canteen! i was not in a hurry but something made me want to hurry out of school. it was my sense of ryan coming. i feel so amazed after what happened today. i arranged with edwin to meet on maple in the afternoon to give him some money but i cant remember the time...

<|4:16 PM|>

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

today panic like crap la. the english drama grouping, we had our fate to decide. then i was with bee leng, rui shan, xue wen, terrance and yu han. was coming back to class when i met tian qing and he said hi. well, he did not go hi jo-an, he said joan. i really hate my name. i was rushing my english and then ran out of class to change for the phototaking session. come back everyone like very surprised. then xiuhui made a lame remark. she said isnt that the same as wei ming? DUH! he in bowling i also in bowling. it is the bowling shirt. of cause it will be the same! we ran here and there. spent a lot of time waiting for our turn. panic until i dunno if can make it in time. i stood at the last row on top of the long and shaky bench. squeeze a bit. was next to zhu jun and we did a formal or was it informal group photo(?!) i was behind ryan tan. jilyn and the others on the right of me kept shaking me front and back. i stare at ryan's head from above, it looked so sharp and scary... imagine if i fell on him... after it was done, liming and i ran as fast as we can back to class. the more i run, the more my ankle hurts. turn and looked around the concourse, first person i spot was ryan lee wen -_- of all places, why was he there? continued running... ran back to class, i rushed through my work. copied some of liming's work. then hand in and ran to the bus for bowling, skipping lunch for the first time. and i did not eat for recess, wonder what kept me going cause i ate a small muffin for breakfast. for bowling, a person kept driving everyone mad with her actions. she spits saliva when she talks and acts so freaky. hold the cloth for cleaning her ball and drying her hand, wave it around people. after the warm up i was drenched in pespiration. haha!!! was abused by liming again, she hit my back many times. bowled only 1 game which took about 1hour. pathetic things where i realised i was influenced by the way the boys bowled. or maybe it was victorine... then i still not walking properly. i still dont get it. i paid the $150 for bowling but they keep asking me for it. freddy called me jo-an. he doesnt know who i am eh... irritated. walked out to outside the swimming complex to take a bus home. talked along the way. heard ryan was high S for the disc profiling thing during the second day of the parent child camp. i have no idea what i am anyway... but who cares. come home and turned on the computer. talk to joseline and she say she talk to ryan talk until me and joel ng. FREAK!!! why the hell talk about the past? and i dunno where the ... came from when it was only a wad the coming out from joel. yea... call me stupid la. i dont care. i officially must give up 100% feelings for ryan. i dont care what he does. i dont care anything he says about me. anyone help me give him up by not calling him my ryan anymore. he was never my ryan in the first place! so what if someone says that he likes me and i like him just that no one would admit it first. i feel so pissed. i also moved ryan's email to the bottom of my msn list where i labelled unknown and some junwen is in that part, so that the first person i see wont be him. well like i really dont know him. restraining myself from mentioning ryan in my blog le. just keep his name away from me as you never know if i would get angry and scold you. so thats all. just remember while i try to erase all those memories from my head.

<|8:22 PM|>

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

today, the morning started off good. i saw ryan tan while going towards the stairs. his ball drop or something, i not sure. i left my bowling bag at the back of the class, then go sit at my seat. went down and ryan was like much later than yesterday. went for science lesson, 1LY was also having science for the first lesson. they went back to class than go to the bio lab. i heard ryan was punished for being late but not sure if sherri just scaring me. when we going for recess, kingsley asked what is my bowling bag. then i dunno why, but he actually kicked it. so rude! went to sherri's class to hang out during recess cause nothing better to do. i saw tian qing then shouted HI out of the door. he was shocked. hehe... leaving then see ryan throwing the ball in the air and catching it. super bored la. we recieved the class tee. colour not very nice... for IT enrichment, we learned the basics of micromedia flash. i knew most of it as i learnt it in primary school. the crush programme was funny... we created an account and did a survey. wow... i am like errr... the results was DANGER. siao la!!! i chose magicianist29 cause its nice to me...-_- run back to class and then, AHH! i hurt my left ankle. what was doing?!?!?! limping back to class... went down for lunch and met yuping. she wanted to go toilet so i follow lor... past by 1LY and i took a good look at the teacher. the teacher looked weird... returning to the canteen that time, LY released le... the teacher asked them to line up! so lame!!! reached the canteen and waited for jilyn and sherri to come to the canteen to eat lunch before we go board the bus for bowling. ryan and most of the LY boys sat a table away... how nice... we left soon as it was like 2.25pm le. saw the notice board before running to the bus. run eh... i more of limping to the bus. for bowling, we had to adjust to some line as we were not able to go to safra yishun to bowl. showed the rest my class tee. somehow, 1IT the class tee also something like my class the class tee. i really wonder why... bowled 3 games where i did very badly as i still bowling the way i did at yishun safra. mr davamoni was there the whole training. i was told that everyone will have to buy the skirt for the competition. i was like OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!! someone will be so happy to see me in the skirt...-_- mr davamoni also said we should not be skipping any trainings as only got this week and next week left to train. i dunno why they started laughing so much that dava said we sounded like hyenas. dots... tomorrow is phototaking session and i have to bring the white jesey, i also will be bringing the skirt to show the others how it looks like. skipping a bit of the selfstudy as need to be there at 1.45pm which is the time selfstudy ends. good luck to myself tomorrow...

<|6:30 PM|>

Monday, June 26, 2006

today first day of term 3. morning started off well. but i felt a bit giddy... those who dyed their hair during the holidays and never dye back got punished to go yellow line and then after that had to call their parents and go home. i looked at the people at the line, all of the sudden joel joined the line. i see his hair i want to laugh non-stop. for PE, we had to run 2 rounds around the school. 2km+! i should have not started running at all! i just dont know why i decided to run... my left knee hurt after bowling without proper warm up. and my right ankle also because of bowling. it did not hurt so much till i ran finish. and my other ankle also started to hurt. finished in 17mins+++ i suck. i SUCK! I SUCK!!! i so hate it. the unknown boys from 3RP blocked the whole path that made me have to cut across and hurt my ankle. it hurt but i dont care. and sad thing, i had to do 30 push-ups for being so slow. i may look fit but everyone in my primary school know i am weak and have no stamina. well and also for the past few days i never had a proper meal. its like only less than 10 mouths and i cant eat anymore... i really dont know why. some people say i lost weight le. maybe i did. i really dont know. i am so clueless... joseline was not punished to do 30 push-ups though she finished after me. heck la... D & T was not that bad. the table i sat at, had 'LY rawks my foot' on it. it was written by some person i dont know with liquid paper. hmmm... i remember seeing words written by liquid paper on some person from 1LY's table. haha... could it be that person? during lunch, we got too bored and went to the library. of cause i didnt want to go in... so was outside with yu le looking at the people passing by. from outside the library, i could tell it was the LY boys and some other boys from another class playing football. soon it was 2pm le, they left the place and i spotted ryan without even seeing his face! see how easy to spot him... joseline decided to say hi to him. stood at the connector and waited for him to walk by. his actions were exaggerated la... his hands were like er... cant describe. when he lifted his head, joseline madly waved at him. i really wonder if he saw her waving. our sitting position messed up. move here move there. and i am still sitting next to liming o_O i wonder why... all the way to the other side of the class. wow... so far from last time. assembly was errrrr......... quite okay... -_- would anything be any more gross than the pictures... the A-Z thing about friendship was worth remembering. i wish i could make use of it. but i am clueless once again. too bad... sometimes when i get too slow, people just vanish. no chance of finding them again... no mood now. feel like skipping school but i cant! grrr... oh for crying out loud...

<|6:07 PM|>

Sunday, June 25, 2006

i just recieved some photographs taken yesterday. here are the photos... they are all with wei lun la. i really dunno why... but enjoy

<|5:29 PM|>

Saturday, June 24, 2006

last night, could not sleep well. maybe its stress about this afternoon's competition, maybe its about what happened yesterday. woke up like 4 times before giving up about going back to sleep. this afternoon, took taxi to kembangan mrt station. then mrt come, and there was this strong burning smell. then everyone had to leave the train. =.= so take taxi lor. my dad just keep on talking to people around... mad la. reached yishun safra, saw ryan and wei ming coming out from the car. waited with zhu jun till sam came. then go up. we tried spamming victorine's phone as we had to register and she had to arrived. 11 missed calls on her phone. wahahaha! got this ridiculous goodie bag. chocolates, sweets, bear bear, golden dog(?!) and a shoe bag. we went arcade and i was tempted to play maple there. but the competition was about to start liao so we went back. first game 100, then 120 and 106. pathetic indeed... oh ya, when freddy did badly, he kept drinking some drink that looked like beer. and he also threw his handphone to the floor. and this thing hanging dropped off. he quickly picked it up and attached it back. i wonder how precious is that to him. after a while he got better. my fingers we freezing at first than got all warm as i started flaring up. my fingers than became more red. my mouth suay dao what la. at the part i saw sherri pick up her ball. i said something bad is going to happen and BOOM! her ball dropped to the floor. watch my mouth la. then she cried and ran all the way out. i was like so shocked! i was talking to yuping and clara about chung cheng havent got a foul yet. and turn around, wei lun got a foul! there goes my mouth again... but he spared the frame so okay la... wei ming's shoe spoilt le. we laughed quite a bit. then ar... ryan, he bowl that time, got foul on the other lane! his right leg past the foul line on the other lane. we laugh until i got 3 for the next frame. crap la! oh ya, sam was smsing some guy from from the next lane from catholic high. that explains them metioning sam's name. and sam's dad called her when he was just not so far away. diaos la. my finger soon started bleeding. irritating. it spoilted my last few frames. so pain. had some 'light' refreshments before the prize cermony. not light lor, got bee hon, spring rolls and some weird spicy fish cake(!?). also had ice lemon tea which tasted damn weird. go arcade again and i stared at the screen where some people were playing maple. envious... i wanted to play lor!!! the girls got 11th place while the boys got 18th place out of 24 places. not good la... they all heck care de la... utter disappointment with myself. sigh...

<|6:44 PM|>

Friday, June 23, 2006

i am so darn tired after the day long activities today. today, joseline reached school so early. it was raining and sine people were standing in the rain o_O. we first played a telematch where BN won first and the rest i dunno le. then we watched the show about where we came from. sick but... i had my mind somewhere else. played the boat game where we finished but havent try out then had to throw it away le. grrr! i still could not focus. mind fly away. and really freaky. of all things i had to turn for no reason and see ryan's face there... oh ya, i forgot. yu ping and i did not recieve the news that we HAD to turn up for the bowling mental training. sometimes its THAT irritating. but i preferred skipping the metal training as i did not have to wake up earlier than what i did this morning. played more games and we learnt simple first aid. i tried to make joseline look nicer. but surely it failed. i only tied my hair once. what could you expect... i also realised my memory is improving really well. yippie! did not have much appetite although i was hungry at first, cause i saw someone... talk about the campfire. i love it! kept taking a peek... the flame was nice... performance was good. everything was just so nice. i even took 2 photos of the campfire on my handphone. it all ended at about 8.45pm. so tired and sleepy. was looking around for rui si but failed to find her and her parents so i could get a ride home. so i walked out of the school gate alone as everyone was looking for someone else. past ryan's house and saw his friends around. that chen rui, climbed the gate. he wanted to go in, so did the others. i so hate chen rui... took out my phone to call and i just told my dad i taking 135 home. i walk to i forgot what lane then saw yu le and qian hui. soon after the rest caught up. reached the bus stop then bus 135 came. o_O how come i guess correct ar? i pondered over the word destiny. it seems like a better word than fate. oh ya, my handphone number is 90140833. no calling for lame reasons. sms is better. or you will pay! i am not kidding. tomorrow got bowling competition so not going parent child camp. sleep in, haha! wish me luck!

<|9:55 PM|>

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

today go for bowling, first it started off with some weird game. everyone sitting in a circle. then the teacher chose someone and that person needs to stare at a certain point on the person opposite. then suay la. guo an sat opposite me... then when the teacher ask his name, he said ryan. grrrr... he first had to stare at me. then dunno why i also had to stare at him. i stared at his shoes as dont know where to stare. i would never stare at his face. for the fifth time already, i meet him on 158 in the morning. when we will doing some worksheet i was getting all crazy. then sabrina pull my file away to give victorine write somethings on the paper. i dunno but i just went 'OI!' then sabrina say 'my name is sabrina not oi.' haha... victorine wrote some words. it reads -
bowling skirt-> AWHT 4032
pure white
reebok
i was like what?!? i did not hear the price clearly and jilyn told me $89.90. i was going WHAT! again. then reheard the price. $39.90. thats quite okay. after bowling took taxi home with my bowling ball for the competition on saturday. afterall i will be going for parent child camp on friday and not go for bowling. to me, it seems like competition comes first, then school, last comes cca. the taxi fare was $4.80. lucky get some good taxi driver. if not hard to direct. my chinese sucks. bluh...
i then went out with my mom to buy the skirt. it was on offer! $19.90! $20 off. thats good news. there was only XL left. 3 sets. the lady called it skort cause its skirt+short so its skort. i find the name cool. tried it on. not loose at all. just nice. it looks nice but i find it a little heavy for a skort. haha! looking forward for saturday. i yet to complete all my homework. =X

<|5:26 PM|>

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

i will, WILL skip second day of parent child camp. of cause i will go for the first day then second day dont go. i wont want to wake up so early and go for this boring thing then at 12pm leave for the bowling competition which i have to report at yishun safra at 1.30pm for registration. its the red cross bowling competition... remember the donation card? today had fun at dawn's house after bowling. came online for a while to play pranks on yun fan... hehe =D then went tagging people's blog as got no problem seeing it. realised my blog the music is really freaky... played maple for joel, dawn's little pesky bro. showed off a bit and helped him do jump quests. we went down to tanglin mall for dinner cause joel needed to buy new shoes. ate dinner at some italian restraunt. ate until really full. so much food lor. drink so much also. with all the leftovers i feel a bit paiseh. reached home at 9.30pm. so tired... tomorrow still got bowling at 8.30am. i will be bringing my bowling bag home for the competition. i wouldnt make another trip to ssc just to get my ball. wonder how much taxi fare i need to pay.

<|10:02 PM|>

Sunday, June 18, 2006

i cant tag my tagboard but i can see it. so i seem to have to talk here... joseline when you coming back again? i cant wait!!! oh and about meeting LY ah... i yet to ask mr davamoni about our parent child camp thing. even if i go for bowling on first day then go parent child camp, i still will meet LY(i think). but i rather go bowling and spend most of my time doing something i like. cca cant win love eh? i dont know but i kind of lost the feelings for him. its so much relaxing now... just that weird dreams always happen. hope this freaking problem can be gone forever!!! hope to see you soon!!!

<|10:18 PM|>

Saturday, June 17, 2006

i managed to finish changing the blog skin in 15 mins. considered fast le... do tell me if got some errors i yet to edit and get rid of. XD i dunno but this blog skin seems nice...

<|10:48 PM|>

today went out to suntec for lunch before going to my grandparents house to celebrate my cousin, amanda, and fathers' day. was walking to esplanade when we past by the busy conventional centre. just then, someone just banged into me. it just reminded me of some day in school... never mind... but after that person banged into me, my whole arm went red>.< its like i crashed into some metal pillar... so pain and swollen. forget about that. talk about the celebration. we first watched cheaper by the dozen 2. then i'm not stupid 2... today, there was 3 cakes as one of my aunt bought a cake for my grandpa. they all say lucky not the same fathers' day cake as both bought the cakes from bread talk. hmmm... green tea cake! i like it! the movie i'm not stupid 2 reminds me of the time the school went to suntec to watch it. sweet memories, as i think back, i wish time would have froze then... when going home, on bus 10, some passenger's handphone rang. li xiang qing ren as ring tone... would things be any better...
later i will be changing my blog skin as i am quite bored of the current one. and its been almost a week since i last saw my tagboard. this computer really makes me mad. oh and i suppose i missed talking to joseline when she came online today. not really sure cause i saw her tag yu le's tagboard today. roar!!!

<|10:04 PM|>

Monday, June 12, 2006

havent been blogging as often as last time, since there is nothing interesting that happened. from wednesday onwards bowling starts from 8.30 am. means all the extra forcing my sell to wake up starts. i will be going for something on the 24th of june for some competition. the coach say de, i not sure at all. hopefully i can skip the parent child camp on that day. but i also hope to skip it on friday the 23rd. i dont mind if i go bowling then join back after bowling. but then need to ask mr davamoni and coach to see what to do on those days. today boring la. i tried to force myself to do my homework. tried doing science but cant copy answer from anywhere so give up and went back to play. sian la. tomorrow i better finish the maths paper.

<|8:27 PM|>

Thursday, June 08, 2006

i can never know why its been so long and some people still dont understand me. i always mean no when i say no. i would not easily change my mind. but why? when i say no a few times, yun fan has to keep pestering me. he gets on my nerves every single day. i really wish i wont control myself and not tell him to fuck off. yea... i repeat, FUCK OFF YUN FAN! i may sound mean but i had enough. i'm better off not knowing him. i say you useless you become like that. u expect me to say fuck off ar? i dont want to see yun fan ever again. he is total idiot who doesnt know what i expect. its only a ludibrium party quest lor. what does he think he is? why on earth must i let him have his way? i clearly explained what i wanted from him. why wont he listen? he makes my blood boil!

<|7:00 PM|>

Monday, June 05, 2006

i been so busy playing maple that i forgot to blog for erm 4 days? i cant seem to count eh... lets talk about yesterday... the lamest and what shit thing happened yesterday. if i was focusing i would have taken a screenshot of it and post it here. it was just so lame. i suspected it... and then it starts all over again. the shit thing that cause me to make a fool of myself. wished all this never happened. i am just so bothered by it. what can i do? i have no idea what i can do. i believe i can succeed myself. afterall, no one will be helping. i can, i can, i know i can. yes, this may seem weird. i dont think anyone would be able to guess what happened. one clue i can tell you is, the last time it happen was when the post fieldtrip history project needed help to complete. who was the one involved? and that shit idea of mine mixed with joseline just blew my happiness away. errr... sounds so serious. i just dont know how to end all this. i dont want this at all! how come i seem to get a lot of problems? sigh... oh and today my grandpa went for some operation. i am kind of blur about what happened. busy with maple again... haha. second week of holiday already... and bowling training starts tomorrow, 10am to 12pm. means i must wake up by 8am and leave by 9.15. hope i wont be late. and now comes the most retarded question. which shirt to wear. ZZZ...

<|7:41 PM|>