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Friday, April 28, 2006

today the comprehension was not that hard. i was spending ages just to read finish and find the answers. when i only had 15mins left to write finish the rest of the answers, i was only at question 5... slow me... we then went for a more than half an hour recess. when i was eating, i saw ryan holding the ying yong wen book and walking back to class. i ate finish and went to chase jilyn to say good luck to her. walked up the slope then jilyn was saying "ryan ryan". i was like so? he was walking in my direction and when his friend called his name, he did not turn. i scrambled up the stairs, halfway his friend called his name again and he finally responded. i could not find joseline up in class. for the second paper, we were suppose to write a compo and a si han. i chose qn 2 and 4. people make it seemed that it was weird to do qn 4. i went out to take my bag and then, as i picked up my bag, i got up and turn to see ryan walking in my direction with a group of boys. i stared at him as usual. i accidentally step on april's skirt and apologised. i quickly went into the class and inform joseline that ryan walked by the class. went to LT1 as quick as possible. along the way we met mr soon, he punished a girl whose skirt was very short and had her shirt tucked out. in the LT1, we sat and waited for all the 10 classes to come in, excluding EP and MD. ryan soon came in and he kept changing his seat. after the maths lecture we had to stay a little longer for the VP to talk to the girls only. she talked about meeting up with people u talked to online. at that moment i remembered joseline and the chikopeks. there was no bowling and sherri, clara and i decided to go to the bowling alley at katong shopping centre for bowling. jilyn's grandfather gave us a lift. the bowling was pathetic. i was getting really low scores. sam joined us later and bowled so well. i took off the plaster and my finger looked ghastly. it was all pale. i keep hurting it when i take off the plaster. i guess i will have to keep putting the plaster till my finger completely heals to avoid more injures. so boring. i also feel lonely

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Thursday, April 27, 2006

today i did not get back my science test, instead mr ang read out our results to the whole class. i got 22/30 and when mr ang say my score, so many people went wah... then read yu le's score they wah even more cause she got 23/30. i also got back my chinese. this time i past and got 58.5... but still very lousy. during recess, i bought my usual and when i was walking down the slope, i met ryan. glared at him as usual then he turn out and walk back to canteen. should be purposely divert from me. then as i looked out of the corner of my eyes, i saw ryan turn to look back. i rush back to class to look for joseline wanting her to see ryan in the canteen. i decided to go down to look for joseline since she was not in class. but joseline was not in the canteen either. then i met clara and heard her camera was spoilt because of the rain yesterday. i saw jilyn and decided to go talk to her. i was so close when i saw ryan was standing behind jilyn joking with his friend. i started talking to jilyn pretending ryan was not there. jilyn said she used the hair dryer to dry her bowling things till it spoilt. LOL! then during the short lunch break we had, ryan was also in the canteen and joseline was going mad. i am still worring about the maths mass lecture tomorrow. hope it wont start at 2pm as i dont want miss bowling. i accidentally cut my finger earlier. then i plastered it. lame la me...mentally prepared for the test tomorrow. i hope my hand will be able to write super fast if not i wont have enough time to write finish the compo and si han.

<|5:07 PM|>

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

i dunno why, but i dont seem to really like ryan in the first place. i suppose my heart took him in as a subsitute. today during PE, yule got hurt by the basketball. i was running from one end of the court to the other until my heart pain... during music we were watching home run. cool hor? today had no chinese cause the lesson was given to miss soh for history. at least was not so boring. i got 13.5 for history! wow... so pathetic lor. when i rush down for lunch, my whole shirt tucked out le. i dont care at all, not as though anyone did. so coincidental, joel was in the canteen holding/hugging a yellow file(not sure if is yellow, cannot remember). it reminds me of the way i carry my files. i bought my food and sat down, facing the direction he was at. he was smsing and i kept staring at him. seriously, his looks when he was smsing was shuai... i was in a daze. he was waiting for his friend. then he bought 2 packets of hello panda snacks. the strawberry and chocolate flavours. erm... those are my favourites. then i tried to see how tall joel is. going to compare his height soon. after lunch, i rush back to class to grab my pen and paper to go for the zuo wen thing. at the first floor of the new block, i met jilyn, sherri, sara and clara. they said to go for bowling. afterall the chinese teacher never say the zuo wen thing was compulsary. so coincidental, i was planning to look into the room jilyn came out from and see what they were doing. instead, the first person i saw was...ryan... i was like omg there. i then rush back to class to take my bag for bowling and headed for the grand auditorium. dillian kept saying other side when i went out of the class. i ignored and rush down the stairs where i met kingsley and mark. kingsley was pointing at me saying why i can go now. was walking out of the canteen when i met vice-chair. i took out my umbrella and rushed to the grand audi, not knowing sara and jilyn were waiting for me. clara ran back to find them. we waited a while hoping for a taxi to come in and drive the 5 of us to ssc. we could not wait anymore so we went out of the school gate to hail a taxi. but the taxi took so long to come that in the end we called for a taxi. while waiting for the taxi, a taxi with mr ang inside past us. then we got more impaitient, we were getting late... we managed to squeeze all 5 of us in the taxi. the other 4 all let down their hair to keep warm... i paid the $3.50 taxi fare and choing to the bowling alley. 5 mins late... and the coach wanted us to do 50 push ups for being late. we went to the toilet to dry ourselves. then go for training. jilyn and i had our bags 'swimming' in water. worst still, our bowling shoes were all wet. since our socks were soaking with water, we decided to use house shoes. size 5 was still loose for me but i continued to wear it. played 2 games. first game i got 122 and the second i got 60+... pathetic man... and jilyn and sherri were acting weirdly. walked to the bus-stop with sam and ryan after bowling to take 30. then change to bus 16 at the school bus-stop. what an unlucky day...

<|8:55 PM|>

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

today, i skipped the zuo wen jiang tang thing to support feng tong in the table tennis match with the rest of 1HM... woo hoo!!! can dont need squeeze in LT1 with the other 11 classes. when he rushed for lunch after history. i bought a bottle of green tea and a packet of snacks. i also ate one of joseline's sushi. when i went to throw rubbish and say good luck to li ming for her science test, yu le told me that tian qing was nearby. then sylvia told tian qing i was there and i just went 'HI!' and started smiling/laughing. then sylvia said i was blushing. i keep saying no la... but she still insist i was blushing. dangerous sylvia... later she try matchmake tian qing and i, i sure die la. oh and the table tennis match was quite scary. we lost to singapore sports school and got 4th in the end. nvm... today i was cheering like siao... cause i had green tea to drink! rain.rain.rain. it just keeps on raining these few days. why wont it rain in the morning???

<|4:24 PM|>

Monday, April 24, 2006

more and more times... ryan tells the people that i meet often that i m a bitch. i know i cant control him and its my fault he calls me that. i asked for it... falling for someone that hates me so much is a big mistake! calming my nerves... i dont want to like anyone for the time being. i want to focus on my studies. if anyone realised i kept taking down notes during chinese today. i really want to do well and go for the IP programme at VJC and not stay in chung cheng till sec 4. even if i dont make it there, i wont mind. exams coming and i hope i do well. oh ya. today was the c div table tennis finals and our school got champion!!! guang zheng did so well in the last game. he beat RI with 3-0. woohoo!!! joseline still insist that ryan is heartbroken because i regeted him... let me forget ryan. time and time again i will try. till the time i succeed.

<|6:32 PM|>

Friday, April 21, 2006

every day that i have bowling, is suppose to be a happy day. today i was not happy at all. it all started at lunch, when i was eating my noodles, i saw joel... nothing special but i just started eating slower and slower... at 1.43pm i went to the concourse. i saw jing yi going to the street soccer court. i also saw the bus for bowling but thought i could wait a little longer for the IT and LY girls. it was 1.45pm and they were not out from LT1 yet. i decided to go with the bus, but as i was walking out, i saw the bus leaving. in the end, i waited till about 2pm before the girls came out. first to come out was clara and not long after clara came out, ryan came out. stared at him then walked to the canteen with the group of girls. at the place where the ncc people are at, yun fan was there. if i was not wrong, he shouted ryan... walked towards the main gate where clara was running after a taxi. ryan was walking out from the office and i stared at him again. 5 of us, clara, sara, jilyn, sherri and i squeezed into a taxi. we were late for bowling. there was a competition in june and the coach chose victorine, xin yi, zhu jun, sabrina and sam. when they were asked to go to the lanes to bowl games, sherri was asked to join them... we had to do stupid things like close our eyes and bowl while the others got to play games! even worst, slide at board 16 and aim at the tape on board 10. i hate doing such things. amanda and jilyn were laughing at this boy who cleans his ball in the way they consider funny. no matter how much they laughed, i did not laugh at all. my wrist was hurting and i was not happy at that moment. felt like crying and i cried. no interest in anything at the moment. healing my heart~

<|6:23 PM|>

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

today, at jilyn's class again. this time, i stared at the notice board for ages. while reading the notice board, there was a quarrel in the class. alan and some guy... no idea who and what was going on. okay now comes the coincidences, i welfare rap of my class and ryan is in the welfare community for his class... then for class duty, ryan is to clean the windows on mondays, i clean windows on odd(or is it even) week thursdays... for the ippt thingie, he in his class the trash bag preparation team, so m i... omg la! going mad in all these coincidences. why is it always like that??? this friday, i will wait for the girls from IT and LY to come out from LT1 after their maths test at 1.45pm before going to ssc in a big group. LOL! not sure if should call yu ping along as if she dont come with us, she would be alone. my other plans for friday will not be comfirmed yet!

<|8:23 PM|>

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

i hurt myself once again... during the maths quiz, my elbow hit the power switch on the side. then during bowling, i my fingers were having slow reaction. my fingers were very pain the whole training and so i took my wrist guard to stop the reduce the pain and it helped. not long later, i hurt my ankle while trying to spare pin 10. i accidentally kicked the ball return... ankle still hurting. my new bowling high score is 159(with the help of jilyn's strike). i was thinking the pins to be both ryans and i got a 1...when i was not thinking of anyone as the pins but thinking of ryan on my mind, i got a stike! omg la...oh ya, joseline's idol ryan lee wen was absent today. joseline is currently scaring me. she said ryan slit his wrist and burnt his hair... sounds logical to u?

<|6:41 PM|>

Monday, April 17, 2006

today assembly ended at 4.40pm... 25 mins late. it was raining too. joseline was saying something like sharing my umbrella with her idol aka ryan lee wen. talking about ryan, he has a new haircut and joseline says he cut for me. like i dont have the power to make boys cut their hair... back to walking home after assembly. i was happy happy and walking in the front of rui si, le min, le qin not wanting them to ask why i so weird today. then, rui si went, joan must be suffering from pms and say must be because yun fan dont like me liao. *thunders* i stopped talking and then she got angry or something. got off the bus, cross the road, and she tripped and fell but did not want my help... i was thinking, if i should go to ssc with dawn and not be a lightbulb with sam and... if i m not wrong, ryan is the guy sam likes(ryan tan not lee wen). or maybe i should take the bus the school hired. or i will go to LY tomorrow and ask sherri and jilyn how they are going to ssc in the afternoon. messy...

<|5:40 PM|>

Sunday, April 16, 2006

finally that guy stopped liking me and now it's a new girl. cute girl in our class??? who is it? let u people to guess who it is. i kn0w who it is and guessing it was easy. finally that boulder has been removed from my mind. i suspect that i like another guy now. fancy having such a far-fetched dream... joseline heard my dream and she finds it weird. he will never ever like me and i can bet on it that he wont like me. if u can guess who it is... i will need to hide... but never mind... its going to be a total disaster.

<|9:03 PM|>

Friday, April 14, 2006

today during bowling, our coach made us aim for pin 10 for 45 times. he said that today's training was only a warm up as the next training, every miss means we will have to throw 5 more shots after the training ends. my arm was aching badly and it was also raining very heavily. i finally managed to make my ball go faster! so happy... i mean go faster because i swing more and never let my arm go out of control. oh ya, back to this morning when i went to visit my grandpa in the hospital. he is looking fine and is recovering well. my relatives thought my school was mad to make us go for cca when it is a public holiday. i had duck rice for lunch and bought a cup of honeydew juice before rushing off to ssc for bowling. after i got off 196, 158 was right behind... on 158, i saw a girl from my art class. diaos... she also got off at the ssc bus stop with her family and it seem like ssc was very busy today. despite the heavy rain, there was a swimming competition. then after my bowling training, there was a bowling competition if i am not wrong. the acc project is completed and now i got to finish all my homework. wet weather, hope it WILL continue for quite some time. hope my parents will get me a handphone soon... no need plan also can... HAIX~ no one believes i dont have a handphone cause i use my mom's... why so unfair? my sis need stay back in school during sec 1 then she gets a handphone with a prepaid card. how come i dont get one?

<|7:59 PM|>

Thursday, April 13, 2006

decided to start a new blog here. today i went to joseline's house to do the ACC project. i was suppose to visit my grandpa in the hospital but the project was extended for over 4 hours! this is crazy. my body is aching after using so much strength to bowl for the past 2 days. i still cant settle my feelings. do i still like anyone? i just cant figure out... u people asked me to choose but i cant... i hope i wont mess things up again, like what i have been doing for the past few months. quite noob at blogging, but i prefer things to be simple. tommorow got to go to the hospital in the morning to visit my grandpa before going for bowling training. i know it seems crazy to go for cca when its a public holiday. hahas!

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